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Sometime in the last 2 years, I was on a "It Must Have Been Love" kick. After looking around for live versions for a while, I found one from 2016 or so - and the singer looked and sounded dreadful. There was something really sad and uncomfortable about the whole video, she wasn't keeping time and she looked so sick. It's through the comments that I learned the whole story.

Marie had contracted an aggressive form of brain cancer, and she'd underwent years of aggressive chemotherapy to survive it. The condition had damaged her to the point she had to learn how to sing her old songs again, and I believe it left her blind in one eye. She also needed a pair of hearing aids. The woman in the video was in her late 50's, but she looked like she was in her eighties at least.

It was incredibly demoralising to see her in that state. She had survived such a tragic condition, but you could tell that it had aged her by decades and taken pieces of her that she would never get back. Her worth isn't decided by her music, and the whole idea of it was a lovely gesture. But she went through absolute fucking hell with that cancer, and the strain of it showed in every line on her face.

I hope her final days were more peaceful than that, surrounded by family and taking comfort in the legacy of her music.

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And I am done with my graceless heart, so tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
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