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I told them once a while back weeks ago that I cant afford that. I cant make payments because right now im suffering from clinical depression and cant hold down a job to save my life. I dont know what else to tell them this morning when I get a chance. Ive got nothing... and this all happened because one of my doctors was so worried about me I ended up in the hospital twice in just under the span of two days. If only I didn't tell them my information... well fuck it.. I don't care anymore because I still cant afford it. I never asked to be put into the hospital. I never asked for an insane huge bill where they didn't even do jack shit for me either. All they did was take my blood sample, urine sample, EKG, etc...talked with a psych doctor for a little bit, then handed me a few papers about how to deal with suicidal thoughts and suggested an Intensive outpatient program which again, I already looked into weeks before and still cant afford, and so then I was on my way home. It just confuses my mind even more why I hate my life when im trying to just seek help.. :(

But anyways, yeah... sorry bit just needed to vent a bit for those that know me with how shitty my factory job was and well, it finally got to me after nearly three years of a mental breakdown by suicidal thoughts and panic attacks nearly every night made it an absolute nightmare to deal with when I had to work the next day. But thankfully, im about to go even into a longer term disability since things still arnt improving well. Depression is the worst fucking thing I ever had to go through and I swear to god I wouldn't even put this shit on my worst enemy... At least in still seeing my doctor three times a week though to make sure I dont do anything fucking stupid. Taking 225 of Vanefaxine and 2 MG of Lorazapam. It kinda helps but im just trying to enjoy whatever life I can I suppose in the meantime... : /