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Chewster posted...

I've been blackout drunk a few times, but it's not something I ever really set out to do each time. If you've only done it once in your life that's not that bad. I haven't done it in like five years though so I have gotten a lot better. I don't really even like to get drunk much in general anymore. Even if I'm just somewhat drunk I'll end up saying silly/stupid stuff or texting people who I shouldn't be texting (*COUGH*girls*COUGH*), then I feel bad the next day. Not like super creepy or forward stuff, to be clear, but just kind of like sober me can take the hint she doesn't like me and leave things be.

And then sometimes I'll hang out with friends who are my age or older and it always seems like they just want to go really hard with drinking. I don't really understand it, that was fun in college, but I'm pretty over it.

If I get drunk at all I'm definitely texting someone. The best case scenario is that I text the people who I was just with after I get home. This happened after my cousin's wedding this year when my sister-in-law and I had a very drunk heart-to-heart and I sent her a wild text afterward that she has thankfully never brought up. There are maybe two people in my phone who I was afraid to see when I looked at my texts this time and neither one was on there which was a relief, though I did text the hell out of one person who was there but left halfway through, one person who canceled at the last minute (also into a thread with both of those people), and one person who was there the whole night who I then called from the uber.

I've accepted in the last year that a very emotional drunk but I never take pains to stop myself from texting. It could be really bad one of these times. These were probably the worst drunk texts I've ever sent because all but the one who stayed all night stopped responding and I kept going which isn't a good sign, but no one seems to care already which is good. The other thing I do when I'm drunk is hug people. I hug everyone all the time and it's something I don't do sober.

I think this goes with what @MNTwins1991 said about how everyone is a different kind of drunk. It's like I give myself the excuse to cut loose from my stoic facade. Not that it's really a facade I guess, but I don't express myself that much in my day-to-day life I guess and I definitely don't do so affectionately. I hugged my older brother! I don't know when I'd last done that.

I also think part of the type of drunk I am relates to how infrequently I get drunk-drunk. I don't really know how many is too many for me. I think another issue might be that people incorrectly assume that I've got a handle on myself as a drunk so they don't feel the need to tell me to slow down or whatever (though I intentionally went hard this time of course).

Zeeky_Bomb posted...

I've been there, and it's pretty scary. It's why I don't drink nearly as often as I did. I wasn't in the alcoholic stage, mind you, but blacking out and vomiting in a bar is a terrible experience that really makes you wonder about your own choices.

I think people do it multiple times a week to drown out different things. Either different negative voices or situations. Or they just like being rowdy. People are weird and complicated.

I'm glad to hear you are alright though.

I did throw up but that's the only physical issue that occurred I think. I didn't even have that horrible of a hangover, just my stomach feeling not great and the usual stumbles in the morning. The day after that wedding I wanted to die from how bad my head hurt but this time my head was fine.