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Well... not in the "I'm too nervous/shy/timid to talk to them" terrify me as much as the "I'm legitimately afraid for my own safety and well being" sort of terrified. Yes.... I can feel you rolling your eyes into the back of you skull at the moment, so let me elaborate. Story time.

Fearless, but nervous.
Age 0-24
Never really had any legitimate reasons to be afraid, maybe nervous. But not full blown fear. During these times the closest I'd come to being afraid was when my older sister, and roommate at the time, threatened to call the police on me and lie and tell them I hit her if I didn't wash the dishes. I laughed at her and said "go ahead and try." and she did, and the police showed up and I did get arrested despite my younger brother [12 at the time, I was 21 at the time] saying no one hit anyone that entire time. I spent 3 days in jail because a girl told a cop that I hit her even though she had no marks on her and 2 witnesses at the scene [my older brother and younger brother] said that no one hit anyone, I was still arrested and still missed work and still lost money and still had my plans for those 3 days ruined.

And I had to go to court and prove that it never happened. I had to have my younger brother and older brother show up to testify, and the prosecution questions if they were just lying for me or not and still tried to get me locked up for that. It was very frustrating and eventually it was settled and I was found not guilty but it's still on my record that I was charged for it [which any employer can look up if I apply somewhere].

Since then I've been very on edge around any girl who seems to dislike me and seems the slightest bit shady or unethical. The idea that a girl can call the police and they'll show up and arrest me basically no matter what I have to say worries me a lot. I'm not the most charming of people, I have a monotone voice and can be long winded and tend to over explain things when I talk and people take it the wrong way, so sometimes people just think I'm being an asshole and get mad at me and just don't like me. So this worries me a bit... But I mean, at this point it was only my sister who'd done that and she's pretty horrible.

age 25.
The party and a visit to the E.R.

At this point, the worst thing that's been done to my by a girl was when my sister had called the police and lied to get me arrested because of a petty dispute over who's turn it was to clean the kitchen. So, I kinda just learned to avoid her and I'm feeling not so bad about other girls. That was 4 years ago.

I mean, I was rather nervous if I liked someone and didn't have the best self esteem. I was around people who weren't very nice about that either and quite a few made fun of me for being single and just straight up mocked me or if I was with someone said they didn't believe me or that she must be stupid or something along the lines where I was the butt of their jokes and the theme was that I was undateable and unattractive. I asked one girl if she wanted to hang out and grab lunch sometime and her response was extremely rude, she laughed at me and said she thought I was joking.

So, kinda was around a bunch or horrible people [who I don't talk to anymore]. I go to this party with a few friends. At the party I meet this girl and we start making out and she puts her hand down my pants and says we should go somewhere more private. So, we wander off to the basement. And we're making out and taking each others clothes off when she notices a couple in the corner of the room and says she doesn't feel comfortable and wants to stop. So, I help her put her bra back on and I put my clothes back on. We go back upstairs and continue to make out and cuddle a bit more and then mingle a bit and so on and then it's time for me to go cause my ride is leaving. But she asks me to stay and I said I couldn't cause I'd have no way home.

Sooo I'll do a 2nd post to finish this.
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A.K. 2/14/10 T.C.P.
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