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So its a bit unsettling. Its cold of course. The first hour was just family was nice but half an hour in.. idk. When people started showing up it was better. When the service started, almost lost it. I dont cry much. When my dad died and I found out about it online, I didnt cry. My mom getting cancer, was tough. I cried quickly away from everyone. Around everyone I couldnt do it.

They asked if anyone wanted to speak. I had something written out and in my head but I was paralyzed. I didnt tell anyone so nobody knew. A few people spoke but none of us kids could. Apparently this is a common thing so it was never mentioned.

Seeing someone at peace when you last saw them in clear physical pain.. was numbing yet peaceful. If I was alone in that room without anyone coming in and Id have probably let go more. I did that when I got to the car after it was over.

I hate cancer. I hate it. I wish it would be cured once and for all. Weve come along way in medical advancements but still cancer lingers. It sucks. And it sucks even worse for me now. It took my mother. 58 is too young to die. It took my fiancees ex husband when he was 24. Its not fair.

its not fair my 86 year old grandmother had to bury her daughter before she herself passed away.

I just need to realize, shes at peace now. Shes no longer in this more crazier and crazier each day world. She made it to the next level. Shes at peace now and hopefully over the days and weeks and months to come, everyone else around here can be too.

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