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gunplagirl posted...

She truly, deeply, madly was in love with you. I'm not even sure anything I could say would even mean anything to you but... Just, consider therapy after the current wave of pain subsides. Because you'll be haunted by so much guilt, grief, and what if scenarios. And there's no use trying to go it alone. Because you're not left here alone. You've got friends, family, and her family. Stay in touch with them. You'll want them to help you remember and they'll want you to help them remember.

Yeah I told her mom that if she ever needed anything from me or if the family did, to let me know. Literally anything.

And yeah, my mom also suggested therapy. idk, I might eventually. Ive gotten better at talking about things that I was previously super quiet about and more confirming things to friends, because only a small handful of people knew that we were getting to that level, even smaller amount got confirmed that we were dating while she was alive. Thats the only thing that truly, truly eats me up. Like yeah, Im sure my boss can read between the lines with how I reacted, but like, I never confirmed anything to her or most of my coworkers. I kind of wonder what they think, but thats neither here nor there.

But I do thank all of you for your kind words. It really does mean a lot.
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