Hey OP. Just wanted to chime in here with my own personal experience. We all go through that dark phase in life. At some point everyone does too no matter how happy someone might look. Ive suffered with depression for a decade and im 30 now. Almost killed myself last year because I had my breaking point, and a pointless factory job that felt like I was getting no where. So long story short, I went into therapy with a psychologist. Been doing that for almost two years now and I think it helps... it probably wont for the first while, but its something im glad I have. Its nice to be able to talk about anything because there is some things you cant just tell anyone like being molested when you were a kid, etc.
And as of these days whats going on? Well, not too much. Its always still a struggle. Im still on disability receiving ssi every month which helps and I save every penny of it and live well below my means and im not working but someday I would love to go back into some kind of work! I look on the bright side of things as of now since for one, I dont have to deal with annoying people. I always hate being around people... and I try to congratulate myself on the smallest of accomplishments like painting my first ever Bob Ross style painting I did a month ago.
So, overall... if anything to go by with my experience here is that also dont ever let ayone tell you that you are to old to do this or that. Fuck that shit... I wasnt too old to try to paint a painting for example, but I did it! Its important to have little accomplishments like this to lift you up out of that dark place. I dont have a plan with what I want to do with my life, but thats a good thing I see it as. Its never bad to wait on something than to jump right into it without much thought and research. I once though that back in 2013, I was going to go into the Army but I didnt and thank fuck for that! I wouldnt have done well, now considering my mental illness. I hope this helps though!