It's a deathly fear. I have it typed up ready to send on Facebook, and I can't bring myself to press the enter button.
How hard is it to push a key on a keyboard? For me, very hard. I won't type anything else until I push that enter key.
Why am I so afraid of this? It's been two hours... Last time I did I was depressed for 3 years. It would make sense that I never did it again.
All I have to do is press that enter button. My willpower is a joke. She's going to think I don't care and find someone else.
Ok, I'm pushing that fucking button. I'm not ready, and I never will be.
Let me list all the reasons why I shouldn't push this button, right now; 1) nothing 2) SO's are like pets, and you have to pay attention to them. 3) My rejection based depression manifests as unrelenting physical pain
I've made bad decisions before, just for the hell of it? There's nothing to be afraid of here... the timing is fine... what if she ignores my message? I'll never sleep... I might not sleep for days.
I almost clicked it right there. It's just a fucking button. Then again, some buttons launch nukes.
Who cares if she doesn't reply back.. just try again with another girl you like. Even 10/10 men get rejected. If you don't try you will forever be alone and a virgin for life. If that bugs you then go for it. You will get better and better at conversations as you go.