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i mean...i know why i was invested. i was a casual saver before last year and got invested because Inviso told me we could probably get Vanille a good placing. and at a time when her best placement was like 30 something, sure it seemed doable. so i stuck around and she far exceeded expectations but i still feel like it was an overperformance. i don't really believe in her "natural strength" and was convinced that a performance like that couldn't be replicated so i was prepared to go out on that.

but then i hear about all of XIII being pushed and figure okay Vanille could probably benefit from that. and obviously since she got 4th the last time and i don't really believe she can get a high placing naturally after this, anything below 3rd will be considered a failure because she's never going to get this chance again. so i started investing. and now it feels like i spent 3 months to get 7th which means nothing to me.

fuck.

maybe under other circumstances i would have been fine with 7th and i don't want it to come off like i'm diminishing the efforts of everyone involved. really it only hurts as much as it does because i legitimately believed she was getting higher than this. hope is the worst.