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Topic	The Notes of Cain, Topic 2 [CYOA]
MariaTaylor 07/09/18 2:37:09 PM #58:	Thanks for the positive remarks! All the more reason why you guys deserve FRESH updates HOT OFF THE PRESS! Chapter 9: Solemn Remembrance, Parting of Ways, Bright Future Gloria -- It has been a while since we have last spoken, or since I have seen you at all, and yet I must admit that you have been on my mind as of late. I don't understand it, exactly. It's not that I miss you, or that I think we would do well together. Not after everything that happened. At the same time, my mind sometimes goes to a comfortable place in my past... and my subconscious finds that time to be the days I spent with you. I had a dream where we were still together and spending time at my aunt's estate, south of Greenfair. It's a place we never went to before, but it was a place that always brought me peace and comfort. I think the intention of my ailing mind was clear. It was trying to put me in a place where I could feel relaxed and safe. And my subconscious mind tells me that was the time I was able to spend with you. I should say that I am sorry for anything I might have done that hurt or upset you. That was not my intention. You know quite a bit about my childhood from inference, though we never talked about it directly -- think not of this an excuse for any of my behavior which may have been inappropriate but rather an explanation. It took me a long time to understand how troubled of a person I really am. If I had known it at the time I never would have subjected anyone to a relationship with someone like me. Least of all, you. There have been a lot of thoughts on my mind, lately. Maybe it's better to tell them directly to a person who was on my mind, and who might understand them. You may ignore this letter if you wish. I think it was just better to get it off my chest rather than keeping it in my mind, or writing it down in a journal where no one would ever see it. And... Owen the Coward woke up in mid draft, as he often did. That was a letter he'd never really have the courage to write, or to send. It was just one of many doubts that was always plaguing his mind. His eyes were heavy but the light was still low. It was early. It was troubling to sleep, and so he was often one of the first awake. As he rolled onto his side he reached into his satchel and dug out a photograph that had been stashed away in there. It was not something as expected or sentimental as a picture of Gloria. That was something he had let go a long time ago. It was only in his dreams that he still yearned for her. In reality, he had lost all real and tangible interest in rekindling that romance. Divorce had suited him well. He was a sad person who deserved to be alone. The photograph was part of an ongoing investigation that he had hired to look into the affairs of his family. Owen had always been a coward and a pushover. His family had not treated him kindly ever since he was young. Yet at the same time he still had to be surprised when he got the final results during those darkest of days. The grief of his grandfather passing hit him in a strange way. A man that he wasn't close to, but he felt kinship for. And the fact that he wasn't so emotionally devastated as one should be, when a family member passed, only made him feel more awful about himself. Then he found from the investigation that his family had been meeting in secret. They had been intending to cut him out of the will, and prevent his inheritance. It was fine. Owen decided that's when he'd simply leave and make his own way in the world. Being disowned by his family suited him. He was a sad person who deserved to be alone. Yet... somehow... he thought going on a journey would increase his sense of self sufficiency. All it had done is make him realize how weak and useless he had been all along. --- ~* Now I only see your dull imposter ~* https://imgur.com/tdhOSKc <cite>MariaTaylor posted [p:904767620] in The Notes ... [t:76784589]...</cite> <quote>Thanks for the positive remarks! All the more reason why you guys deserve FRESH updates HOT OFF THE PRESS! Chapter 9: Solemn Remembrance, Parting of Ways, Bright Future Gloria -- It has been a while since we have last spoken, or since I have seen you at all, and yet I must admit that you have been on my mind as of late. I don't understand it, exactly. It's not that I miss you, or that I think we would do well together. Not after everything that happened. At the same time, my mind sometimes goes to a comfortable place in my past... and my subconscious finds that time to be the days I spent with you. I had a dream where we were still together and spending time at my aunt's estate, south of Greenfair. It's a place we never went to before, but it was a place that always brought me peace and comfort. I think the intention of my ailing mind was clear. It was trying to put me in a place where I could feel relaxed and safe. And my subconscious mind tells me that was the time I was able to spend with you. I should say that I am sorry for anything I might have done that hurt or upset you. That was not my intention. You know quite a bit about my childhood from inference, though we never talked about it directly -- think not of this an excuse for any of my behavior which may have been inappropriate but rather an explanation. It took me a long time to understand how troubled of a person I really am. If I had known it at the time I never would have subjected anyone to a relationship with someone like me. Least of all, you. There have been a lot of thoughts on my mind, lately. Maybe it's better to tell them directly to a person who was on my mind, and who might understand them. You may ignore this letter if you wish. I think it was just better to get it off my chest rather than keeping it in my mind, or writing it down in a journal where no one would ever see it. And... Owen the Coward woke up in mid draft, as he often did. That was a letter he'd never really have the courage to write, or to send. It was just one of many doubts that was always plaguing his mind. His eyes were heavy but the light was still low. It was early. It was troubling to sleep, and so he was often one of the first awake. As he rolled onto his side he reached into his satchel and dug out a photograph that had been stashed away in there. It was not something as expected or sentimental as a picture of Gloria. That was something he had let go a long time ago. It was only in his dreams that he still yearned for her. In reality, he had lost all real and tangible interest in rekindling that romance. Divorce had suited him well. He was a sad person who deserved to be alone. The photograph was part of an ongoing investigation that he had hired to look into the affairs of his family. Owen had always been a coward and a pushover. His family had not treated him kindly ever since he was young. Yet at the same time he still had to be surprised when he got the final results during those darkest of days. The grief of his grandfather passing hit him in a strange way. A man that he wasn't close to, but he felt kinship for. And the fact that he wasn't so emotionally devastated as one should be, when a family member passed, only made him feel more awful about himself. Then he found from the investigation that his family had been meeting in secret. They had been intending to cut him out of the will, and prevent his inheritance. It was fine. Owen decided that's when he'd simply leave and make his own way in the world. Being disowned by his family suited him. He was a sad person who deserved to be alone. Yet... somehow... he thought going on a journey would increase his sense of self sufficiency. All it had done is make him realize how weak and useless he had been all along. --- ~* Now I only see your dull imposter ~* https://imgur.com/tdhOSKc</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
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