LogFAQs > #895372565

I'm seriously concerned that I'm a sexual predator waiting to happen. I've made some extremely questionable choices in the past and while I've never hurt anyone it's been a near miss repeatedly. Double that up if I'm in a mentally altered state (which is why I only drink at my own house). It's to the point where I'm scared to be alone with a girl I'm not dating because I worry my self control will slip and I'll do something stupid.
I'm even more terrified of having kids because if I have any daughters I don't know if I can be trusted alone with them once they're teenagers. Not interested in kids at all, thank God, but once girls start to look mature my brain is like "age is a number, bro" and I'm like "and prison is a fucking living facility. Can we just not?" How do I have that conversation with someone if we want kids? "Hey, kids are amazing but in 13 years we either need to cut my balls off or put cameras EVERYWHERE."
Its not as easy as saying "don't molest people" either. I KNOW that. And so far I haven't, but I can't stop wanting what I shouldn't have. I've been suicidal over it before. Honestly, if I do kill myself this will probably be why. I'll have reached a point where I don't think I could control myself and I might decide to just die already rather than hurt someone ._.