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KogaSteelfang posted...

I see. We're more similar than it originally sounded. Though, I used to be fine with being alone. Until I turned 30/31. That's when I started to realize how far behind everyone I was, and it became a trigger for me to see others succeed. Doesn't really matter where, irl, on here, on TV/movies, in games, magazines, books, whatever.

The envy I feel for others has eaten away at me for years, and I hate it. I hate that I let myself become this way.

Yeah I used to get really depressed/lonely when I was in my early to mid 20s. After that I just got over it and stopped thinking about it. Now I'm like 99.99% okay with the fact that I am going to be alone. There's always that 0.01% where I wish things were different, but most of the time I forget about it entirely. It only started getting bad again when my brother and his gf started dating and visiting often. I didn't like seeing it and just tried to avoid them as much as possible. I'm okay with it now. But on the flip side, my brother has a lot of problems in his life that I don't, so everyone has stuff they have to deal with.