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TeamSilent4Life posted...

ye I even have an uncle who's in his 60s and he's always been a recluse, although he has had girlfriends but now he just collects toys and watches star trek like he's always done. My other 2 uncles are single as well although they do have severe mental health issues, they both have schizophrenia, one's in a care home in his 50s, imagine that.

It's surreal to think that all 3 of my uncles have no friends and no love in their life, maybe it's hereditary in that regard, I know that mental health is. It does eat my up inside, to know I'll never have the chance to be a father like normal people is soul destroying.

If I had friends it would at least give me some respite from those feelings of loneliness. I sometimes go out with my cousin and we get pissed, I really love a dance. I just wish I had a normal life, I'm proud to be unique but it kills me to know I'm missing out on life. The fancy holidays, weddings, kids to raise, all that stuff. Facebook just reminds me of how much a loser I am in contrast to my peers which is a harsh feeling considering I do have value in my work as a TA.

Yeah all you can do is give it a try. No use worrying about whats already the past.

and by dont tell anyone, I didnt mean dont talk to CE about it etc. I meant its probably best not to tell potential dates. Some will be like no you have to tell them! Etc but I think its self-sabotage. If youre a decent person and they like you, it doesnt matter.