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My dad is a pretty typical man, who never really spoke about his feelings much.

We would go months and months without talking, and would basically just check-in on holidays to give updates, we live so far apart that we'd see each other so infrequently, the last time I saw him in person was before COVID.

Luckily, my birthday was a few weeks ago, and we just happened to have like a 3 hour phone call where he told me he loved me a bunch, something he basically never did. We reminisced about when I was a kid, and all sorts of fun and not so fun stuff we did together. We talked about pets who'd passed, and about my kids, and about how excited he was to see them again. He said my daughter reminded him of me to a T, and he couldn't wait to see her succeed.

My entire life, my dad had a drinking problem. It was the major reason my parents ended up divorced. My dad never got over my mom, and even though he's extremely charismatic, handsome, and smart, as far as I know, he never really tried to get a new girlfriend/wife. He told me he knew he fucked up, and that was just how it was. He said he was gonna cut back on drinking, and we joked that he'd save so much money.

He had a dog, a little chiweenie he called Choo-Choo, that he took over from my sister after she had a kid and moved across the country. It was always so funny thinking about how my dad, a man's man had this little tiny dog. He loved that dog, and would talk to me about him like he was his own baby.

All of this is just here for me to say that I am extremely grateful that we had that long conversation just weeks ago. If this happened during one of our months long breaks I don't know if I could handle it. I'm gonna miss my dad forever, and that's just how it is. Thank you for reading.