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This is the first year that I've ever casually dated and each date seems to be further and further away from what I want in a partner. My most recent date showed up really drunk and ruined a long awaited concert for me. I'm trying to make plans for a first date with someone who really wants me to go to her younger sibling's school play and to meet her parents. We've been talking for several months now, have had "not a date" hangouts, and will probably stay friends because we get along well enough but I'm super uneasy about her wanting to meet her parents at this point. Probably will go just 'cause but I'm not expecting anything.

I hooked up with an ex I never got a chance to have sex with but it was super awkward and neither of us has reached out since, nor do I plan to. We dated over ten years ago and are such different people that just being around her didn't even feel like the "us" I spent so much time agonizing over. I always felt like she was "the one" and regretted ending things with her, so it's kind of funny that we're apparently both just "meh" at each other. Longing for her occupied a lot of my mental real estate that I don't know what to do with now.

As for next year, I guess I'll just keep dating. I'm planning to move to an area with people more in line with my values and desires, so hopefully that will help things along.