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Topic	Was your father your defender or more of a bully?
super_felicia 04/05/24 8:29:48 PM #19:	KogaSteelfang posted... Honestly, the worst part was how he always trash talked me to everyone he knew. He was always ashamed of me, but if any of his buddies were around he'd get furious if I didn't come say hi, only for him to start insulting me in front of them, and having them laugh at me. I eventually started refusing to leave my room, but I'd hear him talking about me anyway and how pathetic I am for not leaving my room. Then he's just beat me for embarrassing him afterwards, but that easier to recover from than being humiliated in front of them all. Now Im wanting to punch him you seem like a cool guy from posts here. I only had trouble with people who I could attempt to avoid at school and had no problems at home. Its genuinely frustrating how emotional abuse and physical can transform how you behave and start loathing about how you should have acted or handled the situation better I get them thoughts all the time like why did I just say nothing i should have responded then why do I let the past bother me to the worst that drives me actually mad thinking back on it the way I blamed myself maybe if I behaved like how they wanted way back then i possibly wouldnt have this so bad its just how I drove myself a bit mad stressing on it but then I realised the person was just a complete dick from the start why am I thinking of changing to please a dude who was cruel in the first place (this was all literally just some guy at my school and another 2 of his friends who had some issues and he tried to blow up someones house 3 years after the incident of him bullying me by saying I was unable to talk and I got in trouble and kicked from hs for being a brain dead mute, that never happened I dont know where he got that from seeing as i only seen him in 3 classes each day and how would he get that info in the first place) anyway i kinda rambled the point is to stop dwelling and focus on the future even though i tend to think of it a lot you should just stop its in the past, it its not your fault at all im not sure your now situation but confidence helps a lot in making friendships skills and liking yourself and I think you look pretty good in that pic --- I am a mess and Felicia is the cleaner.... <cite>super_felicia posted [p:979754875] in Was your f... [t:80739814]...</cite> <quote>KogaSteelfang posted... </cite><quote>Honestly, the worst part was how he always trash talked me to everyone he knew. He was always ashamed of me, but if any of his buddies were around he'd get furious if I didn't come say hi, only for him to start insulting me in front of them, and having them laugh at me. I eventually started refusing to leave my room, but I'd hear him talking about me anyway and how pathetic I am for not leaving my room. Then he's just beat me for embarrassing him afterwards, but that easier to recover from than being humiliated in front of them all.</quote> Now Im wanting to punch him you seem like a cool guy from posts here. I only had trouble with people who I could attempt to avoid at school and had no problems at home. Its genuinely frustrating how emotional abuse and physical can transform how you behave and start loathing about how you should have acted or handled the situation better I get them thoughts all the time like why did I just say nothing i should have responded then why do I let the past bother me to the worst that drives me actually mad thinking back on it the way I blamed myself maybe if I behaved like how they wanted way back then i possibly wouldnt have this so badits just how I drove myself a bit mad stressing on it but then I realised the person was just a complete dick from the start why am I thinking of changing to please a dude who was cruel in the first place (this was all literally just some guy at my school and another 2 of his friends who had some issues and he tried to blow up someones house 3 years after the incident of him bullying me by saying I was unable to talk and I got in trouble and kicked from hs for being a brain dead mute, that never happened I dont know where he got that from seeing as i only seen him in 3 classes each day and how would he get that info in the first place) anyway i kinda rambled the point is to stop dwelling and focus on the future even though i tend to think of it a lot you should just stop its in the past, it its not your fault at all imnot sure your now situation but confidence helps a lot in making friendships skills and liking yourself and I think you look pretty good in that pic --- I am a mess and Felicia is the cleaner....</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
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