Frankly, you need to do some growing up. A) A girlfriend of more than a year doesn't necessarily mean "MARRY THAT HO" B) Use this time to figure out what YOU want to do. You're you, not you plus one. Honestly, the best women go for guys who know themselves.
And you, quite frankly, do not. You're too busy dwelling in your own sorrow. Get rid of that and you might become a functioning member of society.
J mean, I love you, but you're pathetic.
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"SMOKEDOG42O taught me how to feel love, but fetus taught me how to make love." - Pablo Escobar