That's.... very accurate. I've been distancing myself from her. As I said, I've been getting better. I'm realizing that SHE made a mistake, not me. I shouldn't be the one suffering, yet I am. Why? I never did anything wrong and I don't deserve this. I was absolutely good and perfect to her. She screwed up. She's at fault. I need to move on. And that's what I plan to do.
At least for now. I still think that we could make it work if she grows up and gets her s*** together. And I would love that. I don't give up on people easily. I've only had two girlfriends before her and I was in love with both. I still have feelings for them and always will. That's just how I am. But the love I had for them doesn't compare to what I had for this girl.
She's even said to me several times that I deserve better than her. But I don't WANT better. I want her. And I hope one day she does grow up and want to come back. I look forward to that day. But until then, I need to focus on other things, like getting my job and personal life on track, and maybe having sex with other girls too because why not.
Really, I don't think she'll ever find someone as good as I was to her. And she always felt the same. So hopefully she remembers that before I find another girl to love.
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