Your post didn't make a whole lot of sense for a couple of reasons, but I'm just going to respond to the not caring portion by stating the obvious: That you very much appear to care.
Yeah, it's a well documented phenomenon that those with attention and self-esteem issues desperately try to convince themselves that everyone cares about them
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_foolmo_
'Most people at least try to say something funny. See foolmo's post as an example.' - The Real Truth