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What the hell

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Explain, what is justice what is right?!

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Roddy's as dumb as that guy who managed to knock off a bank years ago who only got caught along with the rest of his coconspirators because he called a local radio station and bragged about the crime in detail on live air while the studio phoned the FBI, he was only the getaway driver yet he was so happy he got away with that shit he just had to open his mouth about it. Last I heard he and the rest of them are still in federal prison to this day.

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Never forget if it wasn't for that dumbass recording and unloading that video to the net not only would this not have received national attention, the cops were on their sides and helped them cover the murder up! They only betrayed them to save their own hides

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I'm about to walk into the factory floor right now, this is just my last post before my 10am break

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Turkey sandwich with cheese for lunch and an apple if I'm feeling up to it
Random junk food for dinner because I don't have time to eat a grand meal before I go back the next day

I wonder how long I can last eating this way, also been having the runs alot lately,too.

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It's early dawn, gotta go invert some matrixes with a bunch of zyptograms like usual, but man, there's no beauty in this, I mean yeah there are a few yoctagrams in the mix that can up a few G's but ultimately I still feel like I'm adding to a never ending heap. Thankfully only today and tomorrow before a 4444 zetta r and r for yours truly. so, later on the day I'd like to see where the vectors of the rest of the integers on CE will lead.

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that shit is gonna follow her when she tries to get a new job.

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In wake of a tragic event scumbags in this topic bring up political bullshit as a 'gotcha" this world is fucked

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I feel exhausted in this warehouse job and it's become a habit of coming home with bruised fingers and extremely sore feet to the point it huts to talk, Monday will probably be my last day there but I don't know who exactly I should be talking to about quitting, floor managers don't seem to handle that, my trainer doesn't seem to handle that either ,do I just go ghost or what? I want to work in a library, it's quiet there, not a lot of people and less chance of bruised fingers and hurt feet. Plus I imagine the most boring monotonous thing there, organization bookshelves, would be fun to me because it's something I can do while not worrying too hard about speed and anxiety

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yes, 32. Ther's just sooo much wrong with me mentally and physically

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As lightless oblivion devours you, Drown in the everblooming darkness!

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??

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Bouncing vs Grinding
Which is best and why?

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Cringe inducing, especially in today's world of vtubers, youtubers, twitchers and tockers

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I feel like I just ran a marathon

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Society really is regressing because grifters and sociopaths have the loudest voices over everyone else and those with power are absolutely willing to cither to them because they'll be too rich and or too dead to really have to deal with the consequences of such short sighted greed.

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Turbam posted...

best girl gets cucked by worst girl

Just like the second game the writers hate birds and cats

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Never had one

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I'm just so tired

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All these years, and still not only am I hard to understand so does my understanding, I'm such worthless trash

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i feel the pressure, the pressure and the stress and the worries all flaring up on me again.

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Nothing, there's legit nothing we can do about it.

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eggcorn posted...

no one should work in an environment like that

That's typical warehouse work

RoseLuck2X22462 posted...

What are you picking?

Chips, Poptarts, beauty products, you know, stuff walgreens carries

Sad_Face posted...

KTP brings up Knowledge Transfer Partnerships on Google. Not sure what you're talking about but if you're not learning anything that you will find useful for the profession you're dedicating your life to, you're wasting your time. And given that this job will have an effect on your health, how badly do you need the money? How important is this job to you?

Kidney Transplant Patient

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Today, as part of our training we did the picking work like everybody else, that in itself was not the problem, in fact, I was happy to hear I was doing better with each day, the problem is due to overheating and exhaustion I nearly fainted today, the average picker is expected to work in that environment and remain fast paced despite most limitations including disability limitations such as hearing and effectively living the life of a KTP. Ideally you try to stay hydrated but you only have so much time to do things like that in that rushed fact placed environment especially where your rate is your job, if you are not exceeding or meeting your quota that is grounds for termination there.

So far I've talked with family and the trainer about this and while they want me to keep the job they don't want me to damage myself, tomorrow I'm going to talk to my doctor or at least try to talk to the TC to get their opinion and go from there. I'm just wondering, what would CE do if they were in my shoes?

Well that and despite that, I'm really happy today, I hurt myself but I also still managed to make rate and I erased any and all doubts or regrets if I lost this job or had to walk away from this job thinking I shoulda have done more, it's a very at peace feeling. My day off is tomorrow too so I don't have to go to sleep now either.


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Dude has overwhelming support even more than he had when he "disappeared" to avoid arrest.

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Njolk posted...

How much time do you spend in the sun outside?

I haven't seen the sun in the past 3 days due to work, I won't be seeing it until Friday morning, I'm too tired to exercise after getting off the clock, too. You know, this job in the past 2 weeks is really messing me up, I'm not as happy as I used to be, I barely have a life, past traumas I thought I got a handle on are rearing their ugly heads again and overall I'm either a mess, depressed, and or tired

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therapy? You might be right but I don't really have the time or money to see one right now

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Any advice, CE? Mine has started returning in spades after getting this job like today I had a really bad day there and just ended up crying about it once i got home and it wasn't even something big like I shot somebody or anything, it was just, I wasn't doing as well as the other trainees, I was the slowest, I screwed up the most, I couldn't keep up with everyone else, it was like the feelings I had throughout my grade school life and those experiences all came roaring back and I just felt horrible and what made me hate myself even more is because I know it's not a big deal, I know I'm loved by people, and I know this inadequacy isn't real, yet still I fall prey to it, Like I just have zero self worth, I don't care about my life it's a life I stole from someone else who deserved it more than me, I'm a mistake that exists and a horrible person for feeling this way about yourself when others especially family feel different and do so much for you because they care about you.

Like what can I do to stop this? I'm sure I have it even if undiagnoised because this feeling has been with me since I was little, like back then I didn't know what it was but I always felt like "You don't deserve to be here" and nobody ever said something so cruel to me, like it just was always in my head that a failure like me has no worth to anyone or anything and by continuing to exist you
re wasting people's time, their money, their affection on someone deserves it better than you. This is starting to feel like a rant ,, it's just emotional spillage from a mini episode triggered by a failure today, I usually end up fine after some hours to myself to reassure that these feelings are lies, these feelings are harmful, they are not true, they will never be true, ect. the scary part about them is I've at times when alone have lost full control of myself and just sat there in my room loathing everything about myself, my looks, my body, my health, my inability to be like everyone else or be like the other people who overcome their disabilities.

I think the hardest thing I've ever done is try ot write a list of good qualities about myself vs the negative things about myself and I legit couldn't write anything positive, anything positive I thought up would immediately cause a tsunami of negativity to gush out of my head.

Well its five past seven so soon I'll have to go to sleep again for tomorrow's workday but, yeah i could use some advice or if no advice that's fine ,too. venting like this will help me get over it.

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It's morning time and something weird is going on with my body, It doesn't hurt as much as I thought it would but I'm having a hard time standing and even through I slept 7 hours it doesn't feel like enough, I hope it's just a case of the worries and I didn't accidently really hurt myself for reals.

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Time's up. See some of you in the morning

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But I live in Texas

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15 minutes left before lights out, what should I do?

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teep_ posted...

Every day? Or four on three off?

this week it's straight monday through thrusday

Njolk posted...

You can sacrifice in other parts of your life so you don't need to work a 50 hour 70k/year job

Live in a tiny place in a small town. Work with your hands. Get rid of stuff that costs you money. Cook all your food. Sell you car even. A traditional life will trap you in a traditional job

I see

Zanzenburger posted...

If your current work schedule doesn't give you any free time to do more than what you stated, you may want to work on a plan to get a job with better work/life balance. Work at your current place as long as you need to in order to build savings and experience, but have a plan to move to a job that gives you more leisure time (ideally a job with 8 or less hours a day and weekends off).

Once you have that type of job, it's all about having hobbies. Plan out hobbies that result in tangible results. What I mean by that is don't just settle for watching TV or playing video games. Find a hobby that will have you complete a project of some sort. Write a novel, train for a 5k, learn an instrument, practice a new language, volunteer somewhere, etc. I find that those kinds of hobbies add meaning to your life and helps break up the monotony of work/sleep/work/sleep.

Yeah, after today I definitely don't want to make a career out of this

toreysback posted...

you don't. you put your nose to the grindstone and work your fingers to the bone.

ignore the nosebleed and bony fingers

I did that today trying to show bosses that I'm serious about this and all I have to show for it are sore kidneys and lost house keys

monkmith posted...

have a lot of inherited wealth.

Heh, I wish

smoke_break posted...

Ten hours a day doesn't give you enough time or energy to do anything else. I would look into reducing hours or finding another job.

Yeah, it doesn't everything hurts, I nearly passed out, high school bullshit infests this place petty tribalism bullshit from people ages 30 to 50s and they will work you like a slave and now I have 57 minutes to myself before I have to go to sleep to do it all again tomorrow, I wanna quit, I wanna quit so bad, but I can't, I swore to myself I'd try to last at least a month, so instead of letting them ride me, I'm gonna do my best again but not to the point I'm actively deteriorating if they call me lazy, so be it, if they shit on me so be it if they fire me so be it, it's only the first day of my second week there and those low reviews all came true, which really disappoints me because I really did want to like this job, I was excited for it, met some good people there,tho and a whole lotta assholes

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He's definitely doing this on purpose

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About to go clock in. Later

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How many hours do you work a day?

Ten

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7 seconds to the end
13 days of darkness

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I ended up maining this character because of that movie


So I have mixed feelings

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My plans are pretty simple
Morning, wake up, brush teeth, get dressed, leave for work
Evening, get home from work, pick up any poop the dog may have left, eat, shower, make tomorrow's lunch, make sure to go to bed by 8pm
Tomorrow, wake up at 3am, repeat morning routine

In those brief moments of free time I post here.

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it's only week 2 and I'm shocked to find myself back at this table, like the last 2 days were a total blur and went past in a flash

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Who cares that it leaked? it's not like there's anything that major in this game, if there aren't new pokemon it's worthless its sole existence is to make people use Pokemon Home some more in a vague hope we'll get a new generation to put pokemon that can only be caught in Gen 4 can be added to gen 9, Journey's is the same beast

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Why stop at racial politics there's also the working issue, people really have bought into people quitting their jobs to suck government funds rather than the callous practices of their former employers, the constant abuse thrown at them by customers and the terrible pay, even in places where there are no government funds people aren't returning to work and even then, some places are under staffed and have wonky hours because the employer can save money that way and blame the employee for it.

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Solo_Wing posted...

I need evidences

The most famous one is Monster's Ball

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cuttin_in_farm posted...

So shes a porn actress?

No.

You DO know hollywood movies do this shit,too,right?

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And by sex scene I mean a real one penos and vago and blowing because the director wants it to be a real as possible, that means no sock, or anything they'll actually be banging in front of all those people, would you be okay with such a thing?

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LeoRavus posted...

Seems odd to hear about an antimask Asian. I thought masking up was part of their culture even before covid

It is. Covid masks tho, it became a massive political issue and with how quickly it turned into conspiracy theories and all that the world over it's no surprise there are anti-maskers all over the world now.

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