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https://youtu.be/4gOEc4pzM3c?si=rvURJahcTZV4vLjr

It was very odd to have such a cool fucking story from a fighting game back in 1993... which is great because it just was not the equal to Street Fighter 2. It was unique and fun, a decent fighting game, but it just couldn't really hang with the BIG boys. Honestly mechanically I'd put it just below Mortal Kombat though. It was also developed FOR home console, so it wasn't like you were playing a "lesser version" of the game compared to in arcades.

Were you an Eternal Champion... champion?

Previous Poll Results

Aero the Acrobat - 20 played, 7 did not
Beyond Oasis - 22 played, 10 did not
Cool Spot - 34 played, 8 did not
Dynamite Headdy - 12 played, 8 did not
Ecco the Dolphin - 43 played, 3 did not
Fatal Labyrinth - 7 played, 14 did not
Golden Axe - 60 played, 10 did not
Gunstar Heroes - 35 played, 9 did not
Jurassic Park - 30 played, 6 did not
Kid Chameleon - 29 played, 18 did not
Landstalker - 16 played, 21 did not
Mutant League - 10 played one or the other, 9 played both, 10 played neither
NBA Jam - 45 played, 2 did not
Out of this World - 16 played, 12 did not
Phantasy Star 2 - 31 played, 7 played a sequel/prequel, 7 did not
Quackshot Starring Donald Duck - 12 played, 16 did not
Ristar - 35 played, 18 did not
Sonic 3D Blast - 38 played, 4 did not
Truxton - 6 played, 20 did not
Vectorman/Vectorman 2 - 30 played, 11 did not
Wonderboy in Monster World - 7 played, 11 did not
X-Men - 58 played, 8 did not
Ys 3 Wanderer's from Ys - 9 played, 15 did not
Zero Wing - 13 played it, 13 did not
Adventures of Batman and Robin - 7 played it, 7 did not
Boogerman - 17 played, 13 did not
Comix Zone - 40 played, 3 did not
Death and Return of Superman - 6 played, 19 did not

Started September 1st at 324 pounds, and took a youth to a buffet and partook as well.

I'm sure I went for more calories than normal, but had a good workout tonight, we'll see what the weekend has. LOL

New one TONIGHT, lol

Wordle 804 1/6



My first time ever.

Robot2600 posted...

that movie about the lemon thief

https://youtu.be/Q-WHRJPlL5g?si=G9mgUWcDBzDZogrE

I've kinda had another of those "Aha" moments about all this.

So, around 2019 or so my wife's physical appearance started to change. That was as her health deteriorated, her body started to maintain more water and she put on upwards of about 50-60 pounds of "fluid" basically. Despite her diet changing extensively and her not eating a whole lot, her body was just inflamed and producing fluid. Due to this, she felt very bad about herself. In her late teen's and early to mid 20's she definitely was more "conventionally attractive" so to speak? Tall, small waist, amazing bust and booty, that sort of thing. Due to this my wife didn't want pictures of herself taken.

Now as I reminisce and look back at old pictures and whatnot, I see a different person. My wife was obviously healthier, more confident, enjoying life a little more, all that stuff. It has messed with my head a little bit here and there when I look at those pictures. Like... that isn't the reality my wife faced upon her last year of life. She was not "sick" for the last year, really the last 3 years. She was dying.

It's difficult to explain the weird sort of mind fuck it does to you. Most of the photo's and whatnot I have are of an entirely different person and it tricks me at times into like... I dunno, feeling worse about things? Like I forget that my wife was dying and that her using MAID was a blessing to allow her abject suffering to end.

Invisible illness, disease, and disability is so fucking brutal. A lot of people would have just assumed that my wife "got fat", for lack of a better word. They wouldn't have had a clue that her body changed due to illness and disability. I lived through it with her as her only support and seeing the pictures it has messed with my head at times.

She was dying and it was just really hard to see it at times.

I will likely create a new one tonight, but for now... morning bump!

Bumpz

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/7/7/7/AAABltAAEzEx.jpg

I hadn't really thought of Facebook memories. What a wonderful way to remember all the good and bad.

Even back in 2011 my wife was having health troubles that I was helping her through. We loved each other so completely.

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1 - I was in a long distance relationship with someone else on LUE in like... 2002? She came up to see me for long periods twice, I went down there once. We were together I think for a year and a half?

2 - 8 months or so. She moved over to Britain for a year (I'm Canadian) as she had family over there. We mutually decided not to continue our relationship since neither of us wanted long distance.

3 - 3 months or so? Found that she was very immature and I was at a point where I needed something more "adult" so to speak?

4 - I am widowed as of July 17th, we were together for 11 and a half years before she passed

Oooo, not played much at all.

My scale is a little funky. I weighed myself at 325 and then a minute later at 323. XD

Just a reminder that scales can fail, weight fluctuates during the day, and that the number on the scale is never the main goal.

I thought it was fun. Not as good as Streets of Rage but still fun.

It was a lot of fun, hard as hell though.

https://youtu.be/rMRgnqcb1HQ?si=rtAzkT1XsD8uPtR8&t=282

I remember really enjoying this game, despite now watching that Longplay a really irritating sound that basically pierces the heavens every like, 3 seconds. XD

Follows the storyline of the comics pretty well, you get to play as the different "Superman's" with some variation on the gameplay, and it is a very fun beat'em up in general.

Did you tear it up with all the "Superman's" in Death and Return of Superman?

Previous Poll Results

Aero the Acrobat - 20 played, 7 did not
Beyond Oasis - 22 played, 10 did not
Cool Spot - 34 played, 8 did not
Dynamite Headdy - 12 played, 8 did not
Ecco the Dolphin - 43 played, 3 did not
Fatal Labyrinth - 7 played, 14 did not
Golden Axe - 60 played, 10 did not
Gunstar Heroes - 35 played, 9 did not
Jurassic Park - 30 played, 6 did not
Kid Chameleon - 29 played, 18 did not
Landstalker - 16 played, 21 did not
Mutant League - 10 played one or the other, 9 played both, 10 played neither
NBA Jam - 45 played, 2 did not
Out of this World - 16 played, 12 did not
Phantasy Star 2 - 31 played, 7 played a sequel/prequel, 7 did not
Quackshot Starring Donald Duck - 12 played, 16 did not
Ristar - 35 played, 18 did not
Sonic 3D Blast - 38 played, 4 did not
Truxton - 6 played, 20 did not
Vectorman/Vectorman 2 - 30 played, 11 did not
Wonderboy in Monster World - 7 played, 11 did not
X-Men - 58 played, 8 did not
Ys 3 Wanderer's from Ys - 9 played, 15 did not
Zero Wing - 13 played it, 13 did not
Adventures of Batman and Robin - 7 played it, 7 did not
Boogerman - 17 played, 13 did not
Comix Zone - 40 played, 3 did not

Feeling better today! I'm very glad that my "down times" are usually pretty short for the most part.

Bumpies

froghunter75 posted...

Just don't let it be the thing that defines your success. Have patience and work on building better habits and you'll get to where you wanna be

Well even seeing the ups and downs of the past half a month there is still a nice steady decline. If I wanna lose 30 pounds before the end of the year that is still like, 2 pounds a week? Doing alright so far.

Also a 6-pack has a huge genetic element to it. Some people can be super muscular and have like 5% body fat but never be able to have a 6-pack.

Goku is far beyond a planet buster level.

I don't care what Luffy is, he won't survive without a planet to live on.

I do take it when I wake up after a BM usually.

I'm doing it mostly to keep me accountable and really understand how weight fluctuations happen. More like see the numbers to prove it to myself? Lol

43 Days

I miss my wife. Its as simple as that really. I miss sharing the day with her, I miss her presence in my home. I miss her advice, I miss her sarcasm and wit. I miss her so much. I do everyday, but the last 24 hours or so moreso. No real impetus, no trigger for it... I just do.

We lived for each other just as much as we did ourselves. We cared for the other more than we cared for ourselves. While that might not be healthy it led to so much support and love and care. I realize its only been a month and a half and maybe Im just trying too hard to be OK all the time. Its what Lindsay would want for me. Its what I want for me. I dont want to be sad all the time, I dont want to miss her all the time. Everyone I know is in a loving relationship. Its what is supposed to happen you know? You meet someone, you fall in love, you grow old together. I know it will happen for me again. I loved before my wife, I will love after my wife. The inbetween? Its so frightening. I have all the freedom someone could ask for and all I want with that freedom is my wife back.

But thats not really true either. I want an idealized version of my wife. I want what could have been. And maybe that is what is bumming me out lately. That freedom I have? I want to fill it with what COULD have been with my wife. Is that a terrible thing to say? Nobody wants their partner to be sick, dying, sad. We want the best for our loved ones. I want to add another loved one to my world, someone who will match up to this vision in my head of what things COULD have been had Lindsay not been sick and dying and scared and sad. Im just smart enough to know that will never happen.

Maybe thats what scares ME most of all. Not that my wife, my sick and dying and scared and disabled wife, is gone. What scares me is that I will never get anything like that again. That I will never feel that way about another person as long as I live. That I wont find someone that makes me WANT to go through what I did for them.

I know our day to day life was tough. It was hard for me to see her suffer, to do all the work to see her through day after day, week after week. To spend thousands of dollars to keep someone alive who doesnt want to continue the grind. What if I never find someone who makes me WANT to do that ever again?

Its all very complicated. Its a jumbled mess of emotion. Maybe even with how positive I am, how strong I am, how intelligent I am... sometimes none of it wins out over just grief, sadness, and fear. At least at points in the day. I know I will go to work and be happy with my friends there. I will hang out with my friends and laugh and enjoy the day. Grief, sadness, and fear will win out at moments, but if the last 43 days have taught me anything its that those moments, while intense and overwhelming, also leave me be.

Im alright, you can be alright and be sad at the same time. Two things can be true at the same time Jeff. You can be sad and alright at the same time and right now you are.

I've been tracking my weight since basically the middle of the month.

August 16 - 333
August 17 - 330.6
August 18 - 330.0
August 19 - 328.6
Aug 20 - 327.7
Aug 21 - 328.7
Aug 22 - 328.6
Aug 23 - 331.5 (cheat day)
Aug 24 - 329.6
Aug 25 - 327.2
Aug 26 - 325
Aug 27 - 326.3 (despite a really healthy day?)
Aug 28 - 329.3 (after Sunday supper)
Aug 29 - 325.9

Bump

Having a bit of a tough night tonight. Nothing dramatic or anything, just missing her a lot tonight. No real trigger for it beyond the fact I woke up at 5am for work purposes and I'm still up as of midnight. So maybe that is the impetus?

Big shock I know, missing my recently deceased wife.

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/5/8/8/AAABltAAEyyM.jpg

I was going through some things and found this that she drew for our best friends. I'm heading over to see Derek and Stacey on Thursday to watch the new season of Wheel of Time so I'm gonna bring that over with me so they have it. ^_^

... haha.... hahaha.... HAHAHAHA!!!

You're either a troll or you're not very far into One Piece.

https://youtu.be/h4iFNeV4_ik?si=-vKLHX_gwzNUa1dm

Yeah, I played it. Yeah, I loved it. Yeah, it is absolutely hard as hell and basically unfair and it feels like it's almost impossible to beat without save states or cheats. It is SO hard. But REALLY fucking cool. And I know you fucking played it too.

Previous Poll Results

Aero the Acrobat - 20 played, 7 did not
Beyond Oasis - 22 played, 10 did not
Cool Spot - 34 played, 8 did not
Dynamite Headdy - 12 played, 8 did not
Ecco the Dolphin - 43 played, 3 did not
Fatal Labyrinth - 7 played, 14 did not
Golden Axe - 60 played, 10 did not
Gunstar Heroes - 35 played, 9 did not
Jurassic Park - 30 played, 6 did not
Kid Chameleon - 29 played, 18 did not
Landstalker - 16 played, 21 did not
Mutant League - 10 played one or the other, 9 played both, 10 played neither
NBA Jam - 45 played, 2 did not
Out of this World - 16 played, 12 did not
Phantasy Star 2 - 31 played, 7 played a sequel/prequel, 7 did not
Quackshot Starring Donald Duck - 12 played, 16 did not
Ristar - 35 played, 18 did not
Sonic 3D Blast - 38 played, 4 did not
Truxton - 6 played, 20 did not
Vectorman/Vectorman 2 - 30 played, 11 did not
Wonderboy in Monster World - 7 played, 11 did not
X-Men - 58 played, 8 did not
Ys 3 Wanderer's from Ys - 9 played, 15 did not
Zero Wing - 13 played it, 13 did not
Adventures of Batman and Robin - 7 played it, 7 did not
Boogerman - 17 played, 13 did not

O'Toole was definitely more left than what many Conservatives wanted him to be. He was far more progressive on climate change (even going as far as to say he didn't want climate change deniers in his party), as well as supported the decriminalization of marijuana. He is pro-choice, supports unions, etc. etc.

He definitely was kicked out for being more progressive than what a lot of the party wanted him to be.

Poilievre is trying to be a Trump-esque type and it is likely to work decently.

I don't know if I see a majority government coming up any time soon though.

cjsdowg posted...

Thanks everyone for the added replies, and good luck to the people who have spoken about their journeys . We will all do this.

Zero I don't drink.

See I should not be as fat as I am . No mammal,no pop,no booze , and I am still closer to 300 pounds then 200. And I don't pig out.

What is your activity level? I found that when I started lifting more regularly, I would lose fat but gain muscle mass so I wouldn't see a loss in pounds somewhat often.

I'm 328 pounds as of this morning but I am also strong. I have a belly from when I was 415 pounds so it's not like all that is gone, but it can be strange to increase your exercise and not see a lot of weight loss.

Sunday is supper at my sisters place so I don't really worry about my diet (general diet, not a specific diet) on Sundays.

I was 333 about 10 days ago, 328 this morning. Not bad.

I'm currently at 328 or so, wanna get below 300 before the end of the year.

I'm doing daily gym/exercise and stopping eating after supper, as that eating is almost exclusively bad for me.

One more bump for the night and then a new game tomorrow

bsp77 posted...

I would advise finding some new friends, ones who are single. I think it may be good to truly enjoy the single life a bit before rushing into another relationship.

Once again, I know my divorce isn't comparable to what you went through, but some of the aftermath details are. I made a bunch of new friends, and one quickly became my best friend in just a couple weeks (he is now my best man in my upcoming wedding). And I am so happy I had my crazy single life time before settling down again. And I don't just mean crazy in terms of dating and flings (though that was fun), but also just nights with the boys.

That's fair for sure. My boys and I still get to play DnD and BG3 and game out and chat daily and whatnot. There are some friends I hadn't really seen since the pandemic who have entered back into my life... but I totally get what you mean.

My wife and I were both home bodies (My wife more through circumstances, with disabilities and whatnot it was hard to get out and about) so I miss sharing in my passions with someone right beside me.

I also just still miss my wife. I will forever. There's a lot of things I don't miss, but so many things I do miss. It's so strange. It sometimes changes hour to hour. Lol

MrResetti posted...

Do you actually want to meet someone new or is it just something that she said she wanted you to do so you leave the option open?

I do want to be in a relationship again. This soon? If it was the right person yes.

The other thing is that everyone I have been with in a relationship also was/became my best friend. I miss that dynamic a lot. All my other friends (as you might imagine with me being 39) have kids or are married and that is where a lot of their focus is. I miss having a best friend and partner.

I am more comfortable being alone now than I was you know, even 2-3 weeks ago... so I'm not in a rush.

Mutant Mayhem was awesome.

Oh yeah, I don't feel bad about it. I'm very proud of being able to get my wife to where she wanted to go. The alternative was too awful to think of to just die in that terrible way.

She passed on the 17th, and she was schedules to have her pacemaker battery replaced on the 24th. That would have been a shitty experience and that was the least terrible thing she had to expect for the remainder of her life.

I miss her everyday, but more I miss what we could have been you know? I don't miss the panic attacks, the daily pain she lived in, the endless hours of research into her conditions, the dismissal of doctors and nurses, the doctors visits, the crying.

I most of all don't miss the crying. Seeing my wife in that state of pain and distress so often. It was awful.

I'm gonna go see TMNT.

I was born in 1984, so the Turtles kinda became a huge deal right when I was the age for it to take root in my little 5 year old mind and stay there forever. XD

Since today is National Cinema Day and tickets are super cheap, I'm doing another thing that I haven't done alone for over 12 years... I'm going to see a movie at the theater on my own. It's one of those weird couple things you know... you always have someone to do something with you? Even if you don't think you'll LOVE the movie, you go because your partner wants you to?

Bump

Morning bump

Late night CE degenerates need to get in on the poll too.

Bumpers

JimmyPoopins vs Beco!!!

https://youtu.be/VRt7qRwj43g?si=TZ7WmBjp59GKOc6o

I'm a dark meat guy since often white meat is really dry and loses a lot of flavor.

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/8/7/0/AAABltAAEyXW.jpg

I like the variant.