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divot1338 posted...

Put in a security system.
https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/2/3/6/AAXm8_AADyu8.jpg

No pets allowed, and my dog would destroy the place anyway.

Unsuprised_Pika posted...

That is super illegal

Good to know. We haven't confronted him about it yet, but I feel that's coming soon.

DrizztLink posted...

Pretty sure that's illegal.

I'm think it is too.

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That's my manager at work.

He brings friends, and lets other people in. Twice I've found the place unlocked, including tonight and they said they had been in there earlier.

My mom went by a few nights ago, and saw people in my kitchen. When stopped and went in, they'd left out the back door.

I'm starting to get pissed off about it. It's the landlord, and his friend both just come and go as they please. Don't even give a heads up.

I'm not currently living there, but I'm running a small business from it. I had planned on maybe staying there done this summer, but now I'm afraid they'd walk in on me and think that I'M the intruder. >_>
So, I guess that's out. He mentioned that he'd change the locks, but I think I'm going to see if he'd be ok if I change them myself. This is ridiculous.

Arcanine2009 posted...

He has trouble seeing?? He should go to optometrist and see if he has cataracts? Cataracts can be taken out.

Usually not, no. That was the first time he ever mentioned not being able to see, and he said it was only at night. He's brought it up several times since, but we were shocked that night.

He had his eyes checked a couple years ago and got prescription glasses. Idk how quickly cataracts can form, but it wasn't detected then.

random_man9119 posted...

At least you can see improvement in how you act... I've been stagnant for years lol...

Barely, I've just gone from almost non-functional to almost functional. :/

That's 2-3 times more than I've ever had. So sure.

bsp77 posted...

Hey, those strides are great, and it seems that they have made your life a lot better. So don't sell yourself short there.

Yeah, I can now barely function and accomplish the most basic of functions without breaking down. >_>

bsp77 posted...

All I am saying is that you need to practice conversing about personal interests, especially if they are shared interests with others. I know you struggle with that.

I know, and I'm trying. But mental illnesses aren't exactly easy to just power through. I do have actual diagnosed social anxiety(they referred to it as Social phobia). I'm doing what I can, and I'm sorry that I still struggle. Sometimes its just too much.

bsp77 posted...

If you have made those other (IMO bigger) strides, I think you could tackle this one too. Being able to have light hearted conversations about random stuff is probably one of the bigger things to getting into a relationship

I've tried various things over the years to find friends, or groups to join. I still can't really meet new people without freaking out or shutting down. So, dates are out of the question for now, which is part of why I'm not trying to get one. It'd be so much easier and better to have someone already in my life decide to develop a relationship with me rather than just going online and choosing a stranger to try and meet.

berlyman101 posted...

All that stuff does matter, not least because it seems to matter to you.

It's not that it matters to me, it's just that I have made an effort and done things to try and improve myself and my life. I've just noticed the difference in how I can go out. There is improvement, just not enough to count for anything.

berlyman101 posted...

If it seems like people are piling on, it might be because you often come across as hopeless.

Because I am.

berlyman101 posted...

wonder if you've ever talked with your therapist about celebrating your progress or at least framing it in a way that you can feel good about it.

I'm no longer in therapy. He was terrible, I've just stayed at the same job.

berlyman101 posted...

And if you are affected that much by the people here and how "we" view you, then that's something that could stand to change at some point. I myself know how a message board like this can be the only social group someone has but ideally, the opinions of (relative) strangers on the internet would factor nil or at least very low in the equation of a person's social life.

It is my only social group. Idk why the opinions of posters here should matter less. Each of you is a person behind a screen like I am. I don't consider you guys any different from any other people I see out. It's just easier to communicate here.

bsp77 posted...

You didn't respond to the important part about practicing conversing.

I don't disagree with that part. Life in general would be 1,000 times easier if I could actively converse with people.

But that's the sole reason I went to therapy, and he suggested a job where I deal with lots of people. Which I got. I talk with and handle lots of people each week, and after a few years I've definitely seen an improvement. A big improvement. In both my ability to communicate and my anxiety levels around people.

But no one cares about that. No one cares about how much I've tried and how things are working out, because all anyone wants to see is results. I'm not where I want to be, and I'm not where you guys want me to be, so everything is thrown out me not doing anything. It doesn't matter that I can now go shopping and actually pay for my stuff without freaking out and having a panic attack in the parking lot. Or that I can go to the movie theatre and ask for tickets to a movie I want to see without hyperventilating in the dark for the next 15 minutes.

I've made big strides for myself, but none of that matters because it's not enough. Even at my best I'm not worth anyone's consideration. It hurts, it hurts a lot.

bsp77 posted...

But why would someone do that? Not to be harsh, but why would someone waste their time getting to know someone when they don't know if there is potential?

They wouldn't. They haven't. They won't. That's what I've been saying. I'm not worth being with.

bsp77 posted...

That and your inability to talk about common interests with people in person.

I know this is a huge issue, and it undermines most of what I hope for. It's the very reason I tried therapy. I know I have several big hurdles to overcome, but this is the biggest imo.

Even if I did meet someone, or get a date... I wouldn't be able to talk. Awkward is one thing, but shutting down entirely is totally different. I can force it into just awkward territory if they take control of the conversation, but like, beyond one or two light conversations I've got nothing to say.

Why even bother when I'm just going to give them an uncomfortable and awkward time that they hate? There wouldn't be a second date, or anything beyond. It'd just be a waste of both our time.

I just wish that someone would see me, get to know me enough to see the real me, and still decide that I'm worth being with. Everyone I work with or get to know eventually grows to like me irl(opposite of how it works online). It just takes so long for me to be comfortable around a person and lower my guard. No one wants to give a chance to someone like me. I thought that wouldn't be obvious on a dating site, but that never led to anything either.

I'm just no good. That's all there is. Even if I personally found success, it'd be nothing but a waste for the other person.

bsp77 posted...

This is the problem. NO ONE should be able to say that they are positive about things they may have simply missed. That is the point; you couldn't know. But you are so dead set in believing that no one could ever be interested in you that you can't see it. Nothing is going to change for you until you realize that you have these incorrect assumptions about yourself.

If I can't be certain, neither can you. If it's such an unknown, how are you so sure that I've just been oblivious to it?

Kinda making me think they're just going to kill him off early. Though, I doubt The Rock would return for that.

I wonder if they'd be willing to shell out the money to have him record a bunch of scenes, make him feel like an important character, then just cut all that to kill him off like 3 minutes in.

Sufferedphoneix posted...

Makes you feel like a idiot. The one I remember this most is this red head. That's the one I regret not picking up on

I can see that.

bsp77 posted...

I am positive it has happened to you and you were oblivious. You can't say "no" if you were oblivious.

I'm positive it hasn't. It's a nice sentiment to say it's happened and I didn't notice, but that's hardly different from just imagining scenarios. Neither of us can actually know for certain either way, but I have the ability to look back and see how likely it is while you're just guessing. I can imagine lots of things that may have happened that I've been oblivious to.

Sufferedphoneix posted...

Yeah in my case I was just always oblivious until a long time after thr fact and I'd realize the girl had been hitting on me.

Even that must be nice.

Last year we went to the beach for the first time. Dad drive home the next night, and my god... He almost crashed us about 5 times.

Told us the next day that he was driving blind and couldn't see any other vehicles. He cussed us out so bad because we were fussing about him nearly crashing so much.

Scarecrow17 posted...

I barely got any real attention from women when I was around 20 years old or so back in 2018.

Barely at 20 is different from none ever. Besides, iirc you had plenty of luck over the years before you buffed up.

-Kicksave- posted...

For every foreveralone male there is a foreveralone female. But the former contributes to the issue because although he complains about women not being attracted to him he also doesnt ask out any woman who is only 2/10.

It's not as equal as you might think in that regard. Even those women have men using them for "easy" targets. Barring some kind of issue(like social anxiety) that might prevent one from meeting another, they still have options. Maybe not the options they want, but options nonetheless.

Honestly, looks aren't super important to me. I tend to only develop feelings for people after I get to know them well and they have a fun personality. So, when I was using dating apps, I was liking on most of the ones I saw. Ones I thought were pretty, along with ones that others likely would pass on due to looks. But I figured I'd give anyone a shot.

You know what happened? I matched with one of those 2's. We met irl, and she told me that she would never be with a man like me. Then proceeded to tell me about all her other hookups, and how easy it is for her to find a man to lay with, but none worth dating, and that I was neither.

FelineCyborg posted...

lot of it is luck and being in the right place at the right time.

Sure, that's all it takes for most people. It also takes both people to see something in the other that they like and agree to date. Without that, no amount of luck will do.

FelineCyborg posted...

there is nothing about these people that inherently make them more lovable than you.

There is. The fact that they can find someone is proof.

FelineCyborg posted...

what makes you feel you are unwanted and undatable to the point no amount of effort can overcome that?

40 years of experience.

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Congrats!

FelineCyborg posted...

tons of people are unwanted IN a relationship....now those are the sad fucks that truly deserve pity (lol i was one of them)

How did they end up in a relationship in the first place? Certainly not by being unwanted and undatable. They are several steps above those without options. Sure, the relationship didn't work out, but they had the option to be in one. >_>

FelineCyborg posted...

i get where youre coming from, im not telling you to learn to be happy. just saying dont expect a relationship to solve your unhappiness

And if the unhappiness is from being unwanted?

Mine too. I don't really care though. My hair has been going gray(white actually) since my early 20's. I'm nearly 40 now though, so I guess it's expected at this point.

FelineCyborg posted...

nobody said to starve...

Within the first 5 posts, there's a combined 85 years of being alone. Even those guys have had relationships/sex/companionship though. Then there are others, like myself, who add another 40 years into that without those other experiences.

No one said to starve, but some of us are. Then we just get told to learn to be happy hungry, and that having a bad meal is worse than starving.

FelineCyborg posted...

being alone isnt bad. if you are with the wrong person youll feel way more lonely than you ever did by yourself.

Starving isn't bad. If you eat the wrong food you'll feel way worse than you ever did while hungry.

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I consider single life with hookups a totally separate lifestyle to being alone.

I'm a 39 year old forever alone too. In a few months I'll become an even bigger joke. "40 year old virgin" and I hate it.

It's been several years since I was moderated. Iirc both of my last ones were me being blocked during a mental breakdown. Not my proudest moments, and when my account was reactivated I received a notice that if it happens again I'd likely just be straight up banned. So, I've tightened things down on my emotional outbursts to keep a place where I can talk with people. >_>

No. Never had that kind of talk with either of them. I did take a sex ed class in 6th grade, and then there was another sex ed class in 9th and 10th paired with PE.

Our gym coach taught that one, he was pretty crude about it. It was embarrassing enough having it taught to the whole class, but he made it so much worse. "I have to teach you guys about Puberty. I'm looking at each of you, and I don't see anyone that hasn't gone through it yet."
"Ok, so I'm supposed to read this to you and it mentions the penis. I know you all know what what it is. It's your pecker. So when I say pecker just know I mean penis, ok?"

Also, the only thing my parents ever told me about sex is that I shouldn't have it(from mom) and that I'm too stupid to have it(from dad).

I'm not very hairy. No chest hair, just a little in other areas. Poor beard. Head hair grows kinda slow too.

I've had this happen to me a few times. Not a lot, maybe 2-3 times. Whenever I'm forced into a crowded social setting and withdraw.

I know they mean well, but I'm off on my own because I can't handle socializing at the moment.

I'm the younger brother. I just have one sibling, and he's 2.5 years older.

No. It'd just make both of us uncomfortable if I did.

I think I know what they were going for with Hulk. One of the moments in Thor Ragnarok that got Hulk to trust Thor was when Thor told him "You're right, Earth does hate you." He went from a planet that adored him, to one where he's hated. And after being humbled by Thanos he just didn't want to deal with being hated by the people of Earth.

Sure, it's stupid, but he's very childish at that point. He wanted to be the best and liked, and at the point where infinity war happens he was neither and refused to cooperate. At least, that's my headcanon for him.

No real excuse for vision, unless Wanda was manipulating the probability to hinder him.

I know the feeling, I'm 39 and in a similar situation. No asperger's though, but other issues that make it difficult.

It really feels like most other people can't comprehend how much it builds up and gradually wears someone down.

They just need to last longer. I don't like breaking 1-2 weapons per moblin, or bokoblin, whatever the little red guys are.

I think the weapons just need to last longer. Fusing helps since they last a lot longer. But I think the default durability should be closer to the enhanced fused durability.

MisterPengy posted...

I downloaded it and I can't tell if it's just a long process time or if it's not doing any thing.

That's the one I use, it can take a while sometimes but it should tell you that's it's processing the request at least.

Terraria is probably the one I've done that the most with.

Most games with a new game+ that unlocks new upgrades or skills. Like some Ratchet and Clank games.

manhookcardoor posted...

Wait, people actually SEE things in their minds' eye? I thought that was more a figure of speech. I've seen closed eye visuals, but only on drugs. (don't do drugs)

Yeah, visualizing things with the mind's eye creates an image in the mind. I never thought it might vary from person to person and that some might not be able to mentally visualize stuff.

It's probably connected, but I also tend to have super vivid dreams, daydream a lot, and can visualize things great.

Thinking about it, it's easy to see why some people might go insane. If someone has a constant stream of mental images and no filter between what's real and what's not. That would be terrifying.

Seems like the Robot from Short Circuit called someone laser lips... I think. I don't think I've heard it any where else though.

Probably wake up.

I wouldn't know, but the opposite seems to apply. So, I assume it's true.

The speech bubble coming ng from his crotch.

Tag, I'm always ready to hear a new player's experience. Hope you enjoy it. :)

I've always wanted long hair, but mine is wavy. The longer it gets the curlier it wants to be. at a certain point it stops growing longer and starts growing outward due to the curls looping up in themselves.

Sure, I could iron it straight or something, but I think that defeats the purpose of being lazy with it.

Recently checked in a dude at work who had super long hair and now I want to try again. >_<

KhlavicLanguage posted...

you can have all this apply and still get girls because you're tall or have green eyes or whatever.

I'm tall and have green eyes. Never helped me.
>_<

VeggetaX posted...

If people would just lower their standards they would find love easier. Problem is everyone thinks they're entitled to a super model

Not it either, man.

Stalker, Texas Stranger.
The eyes of the Stranger are upon you.

A few weeks back at work, I went to leave after my shift and someone had been in my car. They had dug through everything I had in it(nothing important though). Plus, it looked like they tossed in some of their own garbage to boot. Like, there was a used toothbrush and empty bottles and candy wrappers that weren't mine.

Idk, I guess they hung out in it for a while or just dumped their unwanted items after digging around and finding nothing.

Never had actual damage though.

KogaSteelfang posted...

All 4 grandparents and their siblings. 4 uncle's, and an aunt. 3 first cousins.

Guess I'll do a breakdown of how they died.

Dad's father was murdered before I was born. Gas station robbery he walked in on, and got gutted because of it.

Mom's dad died of an aneurysm. He was told when it burst he'd die instantly. He did not. He had time to know he was dying.

Uncle #1, drank himself to death. He was in awful pain due to a back injury and couldn't get disability. Destroyed his liver.

Cousin #1, was 31 iirc. Also of an aneurysm. This one in his brain while he was getting ready for work.

Mom's mom died of kidney failure. It was caused by another relative trying to kill her a few years prior which killed her one kidney, so when she delayed going to hospital over her other one it was too late.

Uncle #2, not terribly long after mom's mom went. He was also drinking himself to death, but had recently been on medication for his heart. He had to stop drinking, which was a huge struggle for him. One night his friends visited and found him unconscious. Instead of getting help they spent the night pouring whiskey down his throat. He didn't survive.

Cousin #2, was 37 iirc. Committed suicide after his wife left him and took their child with her.

Dad's mother died under suspicious circumstances. She had been ill, and put on medication to help her manage, but her drugged out kids and grandkids kept stealing it to sell. Without it she went downhill and one night she ended up dead after her caretakers just left her to get their own drugs.

Aunt died a severe respiratory illness late January 2020. We don't think it was COVID, but the timing fits.

Uncle #3. Dad's brother had cancer and had his leg amputated. The cancer returned and he didn't make it.

Uncle #4. Also of cancer, pretty close to a year after my aunt.

Cousin #3 also drank himself to death. He was 41 iirc. His doctor's thought they caught it in time. He stopped cold turkey to save his life, but continued to deteriorate. They thought he could recover, but it just slowly and painfully killed him over a couple months. He ended up comatose for a few weeks before finally passing.

All 4 grandparents and their siblings. 4 uncle's, and an aunt. 3 first cousins.