Pepys Monster posted... Didnt he resent himself for not being white?
From what I remember he did seem to see himself as superior to full Asians (he was half white and half Asian IIRC) and seemed to look down on them. I remember him making fun of Asians in his writings because he saw them as being nerdy or whatever.
That, combined with the fact that the only type of girl he seemed to like were blonde white girls, probably did mean that he hated himself for not being full white.