Current Events > MLP Social v2505: "Make us whole."

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MegamanXfan21xx posted...

You know, I devoted so much mental energy to dealing with my mom's sickness that I'm actually having trouble remembering when she was healthy. Is... is that normal? I'm also having trouble remembering the world before covid shit all over everything. Literally, the only memories I have of 2019 is watching Joker with my brother, and all the bad shit that happened back-to-back over the next five months.

I only vaguely remember 2019. it's oddly easier to remember 2017 cuz I've gotten reminders lately of how it's been seven years since a lot of stuff started in my life. I started that most recent CYOA, but I also started actually working around then. it's a bit of a blur after that until the end of 2019 cuz my birthday and I turned 30, and then 2020 starts w/ my grandfather passing and returning to California.

2017 was a pretty good year for me. My brother's ex would be living with us all through the year, Yakuza 0 and Prey (2017) came out (RIP Arkane), we had no idea FiM would be ending, and the whole year was overall relaxing and happy. Of course, my aunt passed away and my old hangout forum shut down, so the good was balanced with the bad, but even with those, it was an enjoyable year.

Got into MLP October of 2017 via Netflix incidentally.

Though if I got into it a year sooner, I would have been able to catch the S7 premiere on my birthday (April 15).

Ooooohh... I just found a very helpful bug in Coral Island! So, if you put a storage chest inside a barn or coop, then its appearance changes for any reason (like upgrading it or requesting an appearance change), then everything stored inside that chest doubles. So, put some important resources in there, swap the building's appearance back and forth at the carpenter's a few times, and you're drowning in items. This is great for kelp, kelp essence, ore, metal ingots, and hardwood, which is irritatingly difficult to get until late game.

Best part is, I discovered this by complete accident. I initially had shears and a milk bucket stored in there for the cow and sheep, then one day opened it to find extra pairs in there.

Looks like John's online obituary is gone, and it wasn't archived on the Wayback Machine. Damn.

Does this mean my mom's obituary is gonna vanish someday, too?

MegamanXfan21xx posted...

that's a rather big existential issue, even in this digital age. hold on to a physical copy of hers for yourself so at least there'll be something of it.

Never mind, looks like his funeral home's website just went through some changes at some point, so the old link doesn't work anymore. I've posted an updated link in his topic on the other board.

oh ok, that's good

I was going for a walk in the park that's next to me, and I saw some unmoving humanoid figure covered in a quilt in one of the neighbors' upstairs back windows that was standing right against the window. I looked at it for a moment, then kept walking. When I came back for a second lap, it was gone. I decided that was enough outdoor time for today.

As all these advertisements keep reminding me, Mother's Day is coming up. Great timing as always.

God, she was only 70. It hasn't even been five years since grandma passed. My mom deserved another 5-10 years.

a neat idea on villain Rainbow Dash
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So one of several posts I'm making is about stuff I recommend to anyone here whether you enjoy just My Little Pony Friendship is Magic or enjoy MLP stuff in general. Specifically the webcomic strip Phoebe and Her Unicorn.

This one thankfully is legally free for reading:
https://www.gocomics.com/phoebe-and-her-unicorn/2012/04/22

Still continuing to this day and had Volume 19 of the published stuff. Two of the Volumes (6 and 8) contain each and original story.

Saw that "ghost" again. Turns out it's a Muslim woman wearing one of those headscarves. For some reason, she was standing in front of the window with her head bowed. Not facing out, but towards the center of the room. I guess she doesn't know how creepy she looks. She must have moved in somewhat recently, because I've never seen her, and I've been going for walks in that park for years.

Hope you're all having a better Mother's Day than I am. Get her something nice, spoil her, and tell her you love her. You never know when her last Mother's Day will be. Last year, we had no idea anything was wrong with her. Less than a year later, me and some relatives were carrying her coffin to its final resting place. Cherish your parents (as long as they're not pricks, that is).

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Man, I seriously can't remember the last time Spring was so nice. Then again, positive thoughts have been in very short supply over the past eight months, after my mom was diagnosed. Now that I've begun the healing process, I feel fairly good again, and positive emotions are almost foreign to me.

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MegamanXfan21xx posted...

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nice.

I've quit caffeine, or at least am trying to. I was going to last year, but then my mom got diagnosed, and I was gonna need all the alertness I could get to help care for her.

The withdrawal headaches suck, but aspirin can mitigate the worst of it.

We're gonna be getting a new router today since everything is gonna be switched over from my mom's account to my brother's. And like every other time we've had to switch routers, I expect it's gonna be a bitch and a half, fighting us every step of the way. We gave up on the last one since it wouldn't go through, despite having a connection and the right password. God give me strength...

It's been almost a month, and I'm still having trouble wrapping my head around it. I'd gotten so used to having another presence constantly in the house, and in two years, three of the five beings living here have passed on. And those last two went less than two weeks apart.

There was some big youth sporting event at the park today. It was nice to be around a big crowd of people who weren't in mourning for a change. I overhead that there was some kid with the same first name as me, and it sounded like he was a decent player. Sure hope your future is brighter than mine, little man.

Also realized another reason we can't get another pet. With us keeping the central heating and cooling use to a minimum, that cat would be very uncomfortable. I remember when ours went out for a few days, the male cat would lay down on these decorative tiles the previous owners put in (hate those, BTW) on the floor just because they were cool.

Been on something of a binge of things from the 90s and early 2000s, since it's comforting to me these trying times. I found out about this thing called Frutiger Aero, an aesthetic that was common from about 2002 to roughly 2013. Basically, it's when devices and operating systems had a bright and bubbly aesthetic, often with nature at its most ideal or in harmony with mankind. It's something that really needs to make a comeback, because we desperately need some cheer and optimism nowadays

https://youtu.be/nh6COqa9HCo?si=dA0Q-fIm0WC0nCnJ

MegamanXfan21xx posted...

Been on something of a binge of things from the 90s and early 2000s, since it's comforting to me these trying times. I found out about this thing called Frutiger Aero, an aesthetic that was common from about 2002 to roughly 2013. Basically, it's when devices and operating systems had a bright and bubbly aesthetic, often with nature at its most ideal or in harmony with mankind. It's something that really needs to make a comeback, because we desperately need some cheer and optimism nowadays

is that what that was called? never knew.

It's been a month since that awful evening. I miss hearing her voice, hugging her, talking with her, laughing with her, and making her smile.

Found a box in my mom's room that contained a bunch of greeting cards written to her over the years. Most of them were birthday, Valentine's, and Mother's Day cards from me, my brother, and my brother's ex back when she lived with us. A few were from my grandma, one from both grandparents (before my grandpa passed on Christmas 2010), and a couple from the 90s. Most 90s ones were from my dad, and they actually had words of love in them. Considering they divorced when I was a kid, it's impossible to believe they were once romantic towards each other.

Some cards had the years they were received written on them. The latest year I found was 2022. After that... things began to fall apart.

Oh, that's nice. My brother got the new router set up while I was asleep. The password is my mom's birthday. But I suspect it's a double meaning. My mom's birth month was also the month he met and adopted his cat in, so he named her after that month.

I just did a speed test, and got a whopping 184 mbps. Last I recall, our previous router only got half of that. Oh, and the fact that we actually have a password now is nice, too. You know how messing with router settings is a pain, so we never bothered with putting a password in.

Edit: A second test capped at 240.

Holy shit...

My brother gave me an ethernet cable to hook up to the PS5 so it could free up more wifi for him, and its connection speed is an absolutely titanic 740!

Just hope it doesn't suffer the same fate as the last time I tried a wired connection. In late 2011, our internet briefly got shut off after failure to pay the bill, and when we got it back up, my PS3's ethernet connection just stopped working. No matter what the hell I did, it just plain wouldn't work. We switched to wireless shortly after.

Nice, another quiche from our neighbor. This is especially nice because she had lung surgery last month, so she's been really tired and unable to interact with us much. Guess we can add that to the pile of "things with bad timing", since that was shortly before mom passed, so we were without her cooking or company at a time when it would have been most appreciated.

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MegamanXfan21xx posted...

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nice

Think I'm getting humidity headaches. Ever since we stopped using the A/C so much and Spring progressed, I've been getting headaches more. A search tells me that drinking more water and getting more exercise can mitigate them. Doesn't help that we've got a mild ant infestation in the kitchen, and I'm sweaty and miserable and still a ways off from recovering from my mom passing.

I have aspirin, but I don't wanna take too much. I already had an increased intake of it in early 2020, when the shoulder strain headaches hit.

Thinking about Frutiger Aero reminds me that I'm disappointed the Nintendo Switch didn't have any real style or personality in its presentation. Everything is minimalist and flat, the theme options consist of a white or black background, and there's no music aside from extremely brief jingles from certain menu options. There was gonna be music for the Eshop, but they cut it, leaving it to rot in the files until hackers dug it up and posted it.

https://youtu.be/t9jx504Wtk4?si=RYvDaeQXh0Mpdi-f

I guess after the Wii U failed, they didn't wanna put too much money into presentation, focusing more on the hardware and must-buy games.

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Cartridge88 posted...

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That reminds me, some of the videos I've been watching are about finding the origins of scary images like those. I don't think they found Jeff's yet, but they're getting very close.

First time at the gym in god knows how many months. It's depressing that my mom won't get to see her other kid get in shape, but I just gotta do this. She carried me for longer than any parent should, now I have to learn to carry myself.

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Anyone have gift suggestions for my brother? He did a lot of the heavy lifting in the final days of my mom's life, like staying up all night to give her constant care. After she passed, he settled her accounts, and put together a photo slideshow and album with my dad. I wanna pay him back, but I don't know what to get him. He says me making dinner is fine, but I feel I could do more.

MegamanXfan21xx posted...

I've never been the best gift giver, either, all I can think is like giving him a vacation, or just like a weekend where he doesn't have to do anything and can just rest.

Cartridge88 posted...

I've never been the best gift giver, either, all I can think is like giving him a vacation, or just like a weekend where he doesn't have to do anything and can just rest.

A vacation is definitely way beyond my budget. Only thing I can think of is a session with that massage therapist I saw a couple times to deal with my shoulder strain.

yeah a sorta spa day esque thing would probably be good, too. something to help him relax.

Helping to care for the cats and my mom (even before she got sick) really gave my life purpose. Now that they're all gone, I don't know what the hell to do with myself. There's nothing to do but some mild house cleaning, going for a walk in the park (before winter puts a stop to that), going to the gym, and playing games. I never developed any real hobbies, likely due to my mental illness. I guess games are a hobby, but the shit I've gone through in the last year sucked most of the enjoyment out of them.