Current Events > Fuck, I really wanna hit up sum girlz rn >_>

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I should have had pre-pandemic foresight and got in a relationship even tho I was aromantic and asexual at the time

This isn't even a sex thing, a Yakuza 0 mission i played a little bit ago is giving some hardcore nostalgia rn <_<

v_v

If I was normal this would never have happened. I'd never have become some weird recluse for over two years. I could be living with some1 and cooking them dinner rn

I have faith in you, stranger. Simply give yourself the stranger and your worries will melt away on Valentine's day.

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Then do it. Have anyone in your phone? Talking to anyone on any apps?

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Thighon posted...

This isn't even a sex thing, a Yakuza 0 mission i played a little bit ago is giving some hardcore nostalgia rn <_<

jesus christ

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A few years ago my phone was reset and I lost the phone numbers of several women I used to know ;_;

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FlameTurtle posted...

jesus christ

BUMP

Use this time to invest in yourself. Just like in Yakuza 0 Kiryu/Majima invested all those points and money in their stats. They became beasts.

Use this time to train, learn new things and learn how to groom. You can get a fuckton of things done when you put your mind to it.

It's all about building yourself up.

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Which Yakuzo 0 mission?

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SpiritSephiroth posted...

Use this time to invest in yourself. Just like in Yakuza 0 Kiryu/Majima invested all those points and money in their stats. They became beasts.

Use this time to train, learn new things and learn how to groom. You can get a fuckton of things done when you put your mind to it.

It's all about building yourself up.

oh dont get me wrong - i am. this is just a rose colored glasses type deal. ive actually gotten better physically, mentally, and financially all thru-out pandemic. just thinking of the past i guess

David1988 posted...

Which Yakuzo 0 mission?

the one where kiryu teaches an amateur dominatrix how to berate men

i used to fill that role for an ex (and reaped a percentage of the monetary benefits). i remember exactly how it started. ah, nostalgia

drunken nostalgia

it wasnt even a good relationship, truth be told. but it was long and there were high highs, just like any other. nostalgia is weird. a lot of stuff was ruined for me after it ended, like guns n roses. but a coffee mug she got me one christmas is still my favorite mug, and it wasnt ruined somehow. in fact, its the only mug i'll drink out of. i think i like it irrespective of her, but shes the one who got it for me all the same

I'll be your digital wingman
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Smashingpmkns posted...

I'll be your digital wingman

eh

this is how i can tell i'm posing. i can get a virtual hookup if i want, but i dont want to really. im better these days but throughout pandemic ive been hitting up the hookup apps, and even kink apps, and taking it somewhat far with people. but i dont actually want any kinda relationship. i'm stuck living at home in some kinda limbo and i really dont want the baggage that would bring to a relationship. so i just toe the line, get drunk, sometimes sext or cyber, then just disappear

i wanna take a shortcut and be at my own place again and have the freedom to have people over or bring people home after a night out. pandemics been hard, especially since coming to terms with myself and feeling ready again to meet people

shit i think for the first time in my life i'm recognizing what loneliness feels like

it's not like, this crushing feeling or anything, but it doesnt feel like something i've ever felt. very unfamiliar. it may just be longing tho, since i dont feel particularly bad about being alone. hard to pinpoint. maybe if i drink more i'll figure out what it is. here goes nothing

Dude you're literally going through the phases I'm going through. Except I want a more concrete future myself. I need to work on me more. Hone my skills.

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I feel you. Ill be closing tomorrow, and its not like I would have had plans anyway.

I have a crush on a redheaded coworker though. Shes having dinner with her parents, and I feel bad that Im relieved by that. Not that Ill ever get with her, I suck so bad at relationships...

ElatedVenusaur posted...

I feel you. Ill be closing tomorrow, and its not like I would have had plans anyway.

I have a crush on a redheaded coworker though. Shes having dinner with her parents, and I feel bad that Im relieved by that. Not that Ill ever get with her, I suck so bad at relationships...

i recently realized there's actually like, 2 hot people at my place of employ when previously i thought everyone was 40+

one guy, one girl. there's no organic way for me to hit them up tho, and even if there was im not starting anything during covid, fuck that shit. and even if i was, i dont wanna start anything when im about to start taking hormone pills (hopefully)

SpiritSephiroth posted...

Dude you're literally going through the phases I'm going through. Except I want a more concrete future myself. I need to work on me more. Hone my skills.

my man. yeah there's always room for improvement but im solid enough to start meeting people if i was an irresponsible fuck. problem is im not

so tired. feeling won't subside. maybe if i had "booze" it'd go away for a bit

Uuuughgigufjdbdb

Lame.

i recognise TC from somewhere

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Sup parappa it's Hair/aiways

oh sick

nice to see you back. hope you're in a good place bruh

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Parappa09 posted...

oh sick

nice to see you back. hope you're in a good place bruh

Yeaaa same ol. Doing great on paper, just feeling like crap when the weekends roll around

Hope you're hanging in there too boyo

Thighon posted...

Yeaaa same ol. Doing great on paper, just feeling like crap when the weekends roll around

Hope you're hanging in there too boyo

you're not alone in feeling that, it can be a struggle when there's a lot of free time. especially when there's only so many ways you can stay busy

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I guess this particular weekend ain't helping in that regard

It's k tho, I get to ogle the MCs in yakuza 0 and drink the drink

ok, this is bordering on stupid and cartoonish

there should be no reason i get hit up for group sex on valentines, during covid. like, i know this is big dumb unbelievable. i know that. i dont expect anyone to believe this

but this is basically the universe rubbing shit in my face right now. a few of my friends know about my sexual reawakening, since ive been open about it. i get invited to a mmmf. come on. like i could cry. i already turned it down.

im mad theyre doing this, im mad i cant do anything. i think im just gonna disconnect from these people altogether. i was stupidly flirting with this guy and he brought this shit up and im just like 'omg, nah man sounds awesome though'

ok im drunk and shit otherwise i wouldnt talk about this stuff. but like im legit gonna cry lol. i feel like my profile picture. this is probably never gonna happen again and i have to sit at home drinking crap beer and venting my shit out to strangers

i dont know what to say. im very upset.

i'm going for a walk. im buying more beer. fuck this shit, gonna drown it out with alcohol, lite exercise, and video games