Current Events > I have come to a conclusion about my depression and how to fix it

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CreepySmile 05/19/20 12:32:33 PM #1:	I spend too much money and have been using this as a coping mechanism. The spending isn't the problem. But it's why I spend. I buy myself things I don't need because I think they'll make me happy. This is and has been a mistake for nearly a decade. What I have discovered also is before my attempts at fixing it myself I was stable in my lifestyle of being a neet on government neetbucks. Yes I was most likely killing myself from drinking 4 times the amount of recommended maximum intake of alcohol a week according to medical experts but I was stable in my schedule. I had a routine to follow. Now I have a new routine to follow which actually disables me from almost killing myself, isn't that fun! Thank you for listening and here is a not! Ronda Rousey picture: https://i.imgur.com/XKyrgnW.jpg --- I just want to be loved <cite>CreepySmile posted [p:939393129] in I have com... [t:78702192]...</cite> <quote>I spend too much money and have been using this as a coping mechanism. The spending isn't the problem. But it's why I spend. I buy myself things I don't need because I think they'll make me happy. This is and has been a mistake for nearly a decade. What I have discovered also is before my attempts at fixing it myself I was stable in my lifestyle of being a neet on government neetbucks. Yes I was most likely killing myself from drinking 4 times the amount of recommended maximum intake of alcohol a week according to medical experts but I was stable in my schedule. I had a routine to follow. Now I have a new routine to follow which actually disables me from almost killing myself, isn't that fun! Thank you for listening and here is a not! Ronda Rousey picture: https://i.imgur.com/XKyrgnW.jpg </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
inloveanddeath0 05/19/20 12:33:17 PM #2:	What do you buy? between stimulus and tax returns I have 2k in reserve but I don't want anything --- http://www.last.fm/user/PolarPolaroids <cite>inloveanddeath0 posted [p:939393166] in I have com... [t:78702192]...</cite> <quote>What do you buy? between stimulus and tax returns I have 2k in reserve but I don't want anything </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
CreepySmile 05/19/20 12:35:48 PM #3:	Mostly computer related things and video games. --- I just want to be loved <cite>CreepySmile posted [p:939393277] in I have com... [t:78702192]...</cite> <quote>Mostly computer related things and video games. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
inloveanddeath0 05/19/20 12:37:06 PM #4:	CreepySmile posted... Mostly computer related things and video games. Oh I just don't crave anything. I could enjoy a tablet but ehhh new clothes bed stuff. I just am content as I am --- http://www.last.fm/user/PolarPolaroids <cite>inloveanddeath0 posted [p:939393337] in I have com... [t:78702192]...</cite> <quote>CreepySmile posted... </cite> <quote>Mostly computer related things and video games.</quote>Oh I just don't crave anything. I could enjoy a tablet but ehhh new clothes bed stuff. I just am content as I am </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
CreepySmile 05/19/20 12:37:37 PM #5:	It's spree spending that got me Like "the new game looks good, might as well buy the past six games" kinda deal --- I just want to be loved <cite>CreepySmile posted [p:939393357] in I have com... [t:78702192]...</cite> <quote>It's spree spending that got me Like "the new game looks good, might as well buy the past six games" kinda deal </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
inloveanddeath0 05/19/20 12:38:57 PM #6:	CreepySmile posted... It's spree spending that got me Like "the new game looks good, might as well buy the past six games" kinda deal Between gold with games the past 2 years and games I haven't full completed I'm good for so long --- http://www.last.fm/user/PolarPolaroids <cite>inloveanddeath0 posted [p:939393412] in I have com... [t:78702192]...</cite> <quote>CreepySmile posted... </cite> <quote>It's spree spending that got me Like "the new game looks good, might as well buy the past six games" kinda deal</quote>Between gold with games the past 2 years and games I haven't full completed I'm good for so long </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Harpie 05/19/20 12:39:45 PM #7:	Do you have a monthly budget for games/tech? --- no <cite>Harpie posted [p:939393441] in I have com... [t:78702192]...</cite> <quote>Do you have a monthly budget for games/tech? </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
CreepySmile 05/19/20 12:42:34 PM #8:	inloveanddeath0 posted... Between gold with games the past 2 years and games I haven't full completed I'm good for so long That was something I thought of, I just horde stuff like crazy though in terms of digital games. Harpie posted... Do you have a monthly budget for games/tech? About $1200 for anything after rent/food It was only when I looked at what I have, added up how much I'd have after payday and went from "I definitely want to play games at work at ultra" to "orrrr I could just keep saving about an extra $1000 a month" that it hit me just how fucked up what I was doing was --- I just want to be loved <cite>CreepySmile posted [p:939393563] in I have com... [t:78702192]...</cite> <quote>inloveanddeath0 posted... </cite> <quote>Between gold with games the past 2 years and games I haven't full completed I'm good for so long</quote>That was something I thought of, I just horde stuff like crazy though in terms of digital games. Harpie posted... </cite> <quote>Do you have a monthly budget for games/tech?</quote>About $1200 for anything after rent/food It was only when I looked at what I have, added up how much I'd have after payday and went from "I definitely want to play games at work at ultra" to "orrrr I could just keep saving about an extra $1000 a month" that it hit me just how fucked up what I was doing was </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Pus_N_Pecans 05/19/20 1:06:00 PM #9:	What kinds of things do you wish youd put more time into? I dont know where your depression comes from, but I think you can deal with it by delving into something positive that youre passionate about. --- My arts- https://www.deviantart.com/bleakcreep <cite>Pus_N_Pecans posted [p:939394682] in I have com... [t:78702192]...</cite> <quote>What kinds of things do you wish youd put more time into? I dont know where your depression comes from, but I think you can deal with it by delving into something positive that youre passionate about. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
CreepySmile 05/19/20 1:13:25 PM #10:	My passion is getting drunk That's a serious response. Before when I was neet I was drinking when I wanted. When I took a job for the past 1.5 years I was drinking when I could due to it being scattered hours. So I wasn't enjoying it ~~Also I already have a plan all worked out for the next 5 years if the world doesn't die on us~~ --- I just want to be loved <cite>CreepySmile posted [p:939395040] in I have com... [t:78702192]...</cite> <quote>My passion is getting drunk That's a serious response. Before when I was neet I was drinking when I wanted. When I took a job for the past 1.5 years I was drinking when I could due to it being scattered hours. So I wasn't enjoying it Also I already have a plan all worked out for the next 5 years if the world doesn't die on us </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Pus_N_Pecans 05/19/20 1:18:03 PM #11:	CreepySmile posted... My passion is getting drunk ~~Also I already have a plan all worked out for the next 5 years if the world doesn't die on us~~ Oof. Thats good at least. --- My arts- https://www.deviantart.com/bleakcreep <cite>Pus_N_Pecans posted [p:939395251] in I have com... [t:78702192]...</cite> <quote>CreepySmile posted... </cite> <quote>My passion is getting drunk Also I already have a plan all worked out for the next 5 years if the world doesn't die on us</quote>Oof. Thats good at least. </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
CreepySmile 05/19/20 1:20:38 PM #12:	Pus_N_Pecans posted... Oof. Thats good at least. I should probably explain. I genuinely do like drinking. And it's not even a case of getting ass blasted drunk. I just like it. I always have. The problem is I only like it when I'm the one choosing when and where. Like now? I have work at 8am but could have a few beers and be fine for the morning. I could get off work and drink and still be fine. It's not like I might be on call or be told "oh yeah the next three days are fucked so you're in". It's just whatever. Also I couldn't go back to being a neet ever, I miss... seeing my bank account go up <_< So greed and alcoholism drive me --- I just want to be loved <cite>CreepySmile posted [p:939395389] in I have com... [t:78702192]...</cite> <quote>Pus_N_Pecans posted... </cite> <quote>Oof. Thats good at least.</quote>I should probably explain. I genuinely do like drinking. And it's not even a case of getting ass blasted drunk. I just like it. I always have. The problem is I only like it when I'm the one choosing when and where. Like now? I have work at 8am but could have a few beers and be fine for the morning. I could get off work and drink and still be fine. It's not like I might be on call or be told "oh yeah the next three days are fucked so you're in". It's just whatever. Also I couldn't go back to being a neet ever, I miss... seeing my bank account go up <_< So greed and alcoholism drive me </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
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