Current Events > guess I'm going sober (drug addiction)

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Edit: Before people start telling me to move out, our relationship is pretty symbiotic. My mom wouldn't really be able to afford to live anywhere decent without my income, and I still do do things for her, just not as much as I used to. I wouldn't live with her if she weren't disabled, obviously.

I live with my mom, she's disabled. Before last year, it was basically me taking care of her and her not doing much back. I did all yard work, finances, house chores, etc. I then started doing a lot of drugs and became a drug addict. This has led me to be more and more lazy and a lot of shit is going wrong in my life (I just got a 2.5 GPA this semester, for example) due to it. I've been very irritable and angry and...pretty much a loser tbh for the past year or so. 2018 has definitely made me feel like a loser due to the actions I've been doing. She finally a few days ago told me she knows I'm a drug addict, and has been on my ass about it for a long time. She hasn't 'kicked me out' because I do still pay for a lot of the rent, utilities, etc. Financially it's still a pretty symbiotic relationship. Today she really got mad about it, said she was going to move out (but didn't) and went and flushed all of the drugs I've been doing down the toilet.

I don't have easy access to getting those drugs again for over a month, so I'm probably just going to be sober for the month. Luckily, nothing I have done is physically addictive so I won't die or anything, but it's going to be a wild ride... I just hope she gets off my back once I do become sober.

I had a lot of promise in life prior to 2018, I'm not sure what happened that made me want to...begin the process of throwing it away.

If I do become sober and go back to the way things were before 2017/18 started, I should still be able to get on a good path in life. I just hope I am able to.

\This was probably the kick in the pants I needed. At least I haven't ODed or anything seriously bad, so I have the potential to go back to normal.

uhh

Fuck man, I hope everything turns around
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what kind of drugs
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Hey man. I wish you luck. I've never been in this predicament myself but I have attempted to help friends who have gone through it. Definitely going to be tough but keep it up.
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juicebox4 posted...

what kind of drugs

Not terribly bad ones, but I would die if I kept doing them at the rate that I did. I guess I have to go sober sometime if I want to live, which tbh I don't care that much about living, but...