Current Events > What was the lowest point in your life?

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I've been homeless before.
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this moment, with you, rn

TheDarkCircle posted...

this moment, with you, rn

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Banged a married woman and her husband died tragically by electrocution like 2 months later.
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@RedWhiteBlue posted...

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I'd rather not even give a tl;dr, people will assume shit and want me put in the nut house because they have not suffered through some severely mentally shattering shit. The tl;dr of the tl;dr is depression and lack of love.

Sounds like you wanna talk. Do it man, I'm down to listen

TheDarkCircle posted...

@RedWhiteBlue posted...

Something something you've reached the text box limit something something


I'd rather not even give a tl;dr, people will assume shit and want me put in the nut house because they have not suffered through some severely mentally shattering shit. The tl;dr of the tl;dr is depression and lack of love.

Sounds like you wanna talk. Do it man, I'm down to listen

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That time my mom made me take an underwater weight test.
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This whole year can be considered my lowest point.
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Drank and smoked pretty much every day to the point where I didn't want to do anything but stay inside alone and play video games. I mean, it was fun for a year or two, but it got old after a while. Worst part was getting really behind on bills and having no energy or motivation.

Wouldn't have done it any differently though. I still miss that lifestyle sometimes.

Being homeless (thank God, for a short time) here too. Short of terminal or crippling illness, it's tough to think of worse circumstances to find yourself in.
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now

I was already a fuckin trainwreck and the way my last relationship ended compounded with everything else in my life deteriorating has pretty much ruined me
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I met this girl at work and we hit it off, we texted nonstop for weeks and ended up having sex a few times and I fell in love with her. We had such a deep connection, I never met anyone like her. Somehow though I missed some psychological problems she had and she ended up going crazy, her mom thought I drugged her and raped her and even she ended up believing it too (she messaged me one more time after we stopped talking saying shit like how dare you and all this crazy shit) Her brother threatened me several times saying he was going to kill me, it was just a completely fucked situation. It sent me into a very severe depression because the one thing that I hate more than anything is being accused of something I would never do. Add all of that with me being stuck in a dead end job that I hated so it was just a complete nightmare for me at the time. The depression lasted for about a year and a half, I've moved way past it now being at a great job, having an amazing girlfriend and finally having my own place
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ShiningBlade1 posted...

I met this girl at work and we hit it off, we texted nonstop for weeks and ended up having sex a few times and I fell in love with her. We had such a deep connection, I never met anyone like her. Somehow though I missed some psychological problems she had and she ended up going crazy... the one thing that I hate more than anything is being accused of something I would never do.../

Sounds like my situation 10-12 years ago. My first girlfriend, who I dated for ~18 months, was a bipolar compulsive liar, routinely stole shit from me and my family, told me and other people that I got her pregnant (even though we're both white and the baby was mixed race), and told her family that I beat and raped her. Thankfully, they knew how severe her mental issues were and knew she was making it all up. They even tried warning me ahead of time, but I didn't know better then.

At this point, I hardly even think about that situation. It's probably had some impact on how I view people in general, but most of the bullshit from it has just faded away over time.

Around 2010 to today

Posting here.
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Probably the days leading up to when I admitted myself to a psychiatric hospital last month.
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DreadedWave posted...

Probably the days leading up to when I admitted myself to a psychiatric hospital last month.

I wouldn't call that a low point at all, it's progress honestly. You shouldn't be ashamed of seeking out help.
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experiencing hell month which was being stripped of nearly all my money to help my family during a tough time.

that's about the lowest it has gone.
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I once took a tour into some deep caves with some pretty rocks all over. We were 100 feet down or something. That's probably the lowest I've been.
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being sad in high scool
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The first year and a half of when I moved out and right now. I got so bad that killing myself was on my mind basically every day
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Either high school or when I was briefly engaged.
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This whole last year
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20-29.

I had lots of severe anxiety disorders. life was hell.
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It's kind of hard to choose. My whole life has sucked, and there's many different options like a couple of times my dad tried killing me, or just being hated by everyone important to me, being suicidal as a teen/young adult.

I guess though, it'd have to be last summer. When I fully realized that there is no hope, and this is my life until I die. I tried therapy, and depression/anxiety medicine, but things still got worse. I decided to kill myself then, and had everything set up. At the point of actually doing it though, I wasn't certain that's it'd actually kill me and not just really myself up, so I backed out at that point until I could be certain.

There's so much I want out of life, and I'm too pathethic, and stupid to get any if it. Plus, even if I did, it wouldn't fix me. I'm banking my happiness and mental health on someone coming along to save me, and that's just not going to happen and it's totally unfair to expect if someone. Im not worth saving, I'm not worth being with.

I'm turning 34 soon, and have never had a relationship, never been with anyone physically, I'm too emotionally closed off and distant in oersonality to get close with anyone. I don't think I could accept a relationship even if the opportunity was present. I'm going to die a stupid, lonely virgin, whose only going to be remembered as an annoyance on a message board.
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2009

2 years out of high school, had absolutely zero direction in life, took horrible care of myself and was still living with my parents.
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When my house burned down.
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EffectAndCause posted...

2009

2 years out of high school, had absolutely zero direction in life, took horrible care of myself and was still living with my parents.

Were you working or going to school?
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REMercsChamp posted...

EffectAndCause posted...

2009

2 years out of high school, had absolutely zero direction in life, took horrible care of myself and was still living with my parents.

Were you working or going to school?

I had two crappy part time jobs and had just started college but felt like I was getting absolutely nothing out of it because I was spending an insane amount of money on books and tuition but couldn't afford to dorm there and not work so it was just empty classes. I didn't have time to make friends so it was an incredibly isolated experience.

Like I barely even remember anything noteworthy from the 2 years I was there.
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EffectAndCause posted...

REMercsChamp posted...

EffectAndCause posted...

2009

2 years out of high school, had absolutely zero direction in life, took horrible care of myself and was still living with my parents.

Were you working or going to school?

I had two crappy part time jobs and had just started college but felt like I was getting absolutely nothing out of it because I was spending an insane amount of money on books and tuition but couldn't afford to dorm there and not work so it was just empty classes. I didn't have time to make friends so it was an incredibly isolated experience.

Like I barely even remember anything noteworthy from the 2 years I was there.

Honestly this doesn't sound that unusual. You're still 19-20 or whatever trying to figure life out.
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Oh, well yeah I didn't say it was unusual, that was just the lowest point in my life. My life hasn't been as bad as some other people's.

Eventually things fell into place. My buddy got me in at a stable, high paying corporate job. I got my own place. I started eating better and working out. I met a girl. So now things are good.
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Probably when my engagement was called off and she ended the relationship. But I'm better for it.
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Wife miss carrying twice within two years with the second almost killing her due to blood loss.

This past year. Years of ignoring my depression and anxiety came to a head and things got pretty bad. Stopped eating and sleeping and constantly thought about suicide.

I'm okay now. At least for the most part.
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Gamer99z posted...

TheDarkCircle posted...

this moment, with you, rn

:(
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In my room all day and night, playing video games in solitude.
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Sayoria posted...

In my room all day and night, playing video games in solitude.

Sounds like a good time to me.
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Playing WoW 24/7

MabusIncarnate posted...

Banged a married woman and her husband died tragically by electrocution like 2 months later.

This happened.
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ShinobiNinjaX posted...

Sayoria posted...

In my room all day and night, playing video games in solitude.

Sounds like a good time to me.

It wasn't. I was a mess.
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When I let a girl lead me on really really bad in high school. It would have ruined my senior trip and prom if I didn't have people supporting me.

If not that, then arguably now because I'm being useless and not doing anything with my degree. I'm not unhappy though, just a little disappointed with myself.
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hi tc. thanks for the sig
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When I was about to choke myself to death in my closet with a plastic shopping bag.

That wasn't much fun.
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When I made my gamefaqs account