Current Events > A weird positive of Covid Im experiencing in this fucked up situation.

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Im pretty sure it cured some of my social anxiety. No bullshitting.

Revelation:

Ive struggled with making important phone calls pretty much my whole life. I procrastinate and I immediately get anxious when Im going to connect.

Well, I have an injury and just out of habit of being a momma's boy, I text to my mom first. Sometimes if I was feeling extra anxious, Id literally just talk her into making the calls for me.

But, today, after I get the number to my doctor, I don't have that anxious feeling I get 100% of the time otherwise. Instead, it just feels like something I need to do and get done. So, I just do it and I just talk to the lady like I would if I was having a casual conversation with someone I know. It was that simple for me all of a sudden.

Weird, no?

I know this seems like a nothing story to anyone who doesn't deal with this type of social anxiety, but I also know there's some here that deal with worse social anxiety than I do. So, yeah. I guess there's that.

The issues you faced suddenly seem small-time compared to the ongoing stress of having Covid, you mean?

ViewtifulJoe posted...

The issues you faced suddenly seem small-time compared to the ongoing stress of having Covid, you mean?

You a wise one. That's definitely a factor of it. But my physical Covid problems weren't that bad. It's the mental stuff that's fuckin me up. I feel like my brain crumbled apart and got put back together with super glue. Ill literally go somewhere I been 1000 times and it looks off now. But I can't understand why. I gotta rebuild my understanding of music and comedy, which Im working on now. I feel like it's impossible to grasp until you're in the shits. Literally everything feels like you're viewing it from someone else's perspective. Which Im pretty sure is what they mean by Brain Fog. And I read it can last anywhere from 2 weeks to years. Which is scary, but I feel like Ill figure it out.

Phone calls are the bane of my existence.

KogaSteelfang posted...

Phone calls are the bane of my existence.

That's how I felt. A lot of the confidence I preach here is partially just me faking it til I make it. Which, I've got results from. I don't think people realize that by attempting to build up those around you, you get it back 10 fold. I try to inspire others to do better so it'll come back for me lol. I mean, I genuinely want others to be good and believe the things I say. I don't think it would work if you don't actually believe in people. But, Im directly siphoning off that tank Im trying to plant for others. If you are just depleting other people's tanks when you're around them, there's nothing for you either.

Lost_All_Senses -> Gained_New_Skill

You'll be alright man

Working from home allows me more time to read and to write.

Thats awesome man! That seems like a huge win.

Suolevram posted...

Lost_All_Senses -> Gained_New_Skill

You'll be alright man

Appreciate it man. Positivity seems very important to me right now (it always is, but especially now). Seems like it's doing all the leg work.