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Ever wish a random piece of debris or something would fall from the sky and just aim directly at you and end it all? Like, not actively suicidal just wouldn't really mind/care if a random moose or other large animal would mow you down crossing the street?

I guess I'm just really apathetic right now.

How's your day going?

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i got out of bed at 3pm because i didn't have a reason to get out earlier

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*hugs tc* Better?

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NOM posted...

Ever wish a random piece of debris or something would fall from the sky and just aim directly at you and end it all? Like, not actively suicidal just wouldn't really mind/care if a random moose or other large animal would mow you down crossing the street?

Only every hour of every day.

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That's how I feel all the time

Paper_Okami posted...

i got out of bed at 3pm because i didn't have a reason to get out earlier

This is also me except sometimes I get up at noon, eat lunch then go back to sleep by 2

Going to bed now after accomplishing absolutely nothing today.

Fingers crossed that I dont wake up, but I probably will.

Damnit.

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I'm not a psychologist mate, but it's okay to not accomplish anything some days. Try to think of it as a way to unwind, good for mental health.

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you know what's a small but fucking terrible part of being depressed and having no life?

I have no reason to wake up so I sleep so late I can't go get breakfast. I've still yet to try Wendy's breakfast items despite really wanting to because I just can't wake up before noon, let alone be at a location by 10:30

What life goal do you want but feel like you will never have tc?

That feel when your only happiness/solace in life is to be asleep and dead to the world but now youre tossing and turning and you cant even do that.

The shit show just keeps going and going

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Yeah it took me over an hour and a half last night to fall asleep

NOM posted...

Ever wish a random piece of debris or something would fall from the sky and just aim directly at you and end it all? Like, not actively suicidal just wouldn't really mind/care if a random moose or other large animal would mow you down crossing the street?

i gotcha buddy, i have felt that way in the past. you were active in my fin topic too. sometimes hair loss and depression line up. not saying that is the case with you.

do you have some kind of support system? therapy? family? friends?

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NOM posted...

Fingers crossed that I dont wake up, but I probably will.

I make this wish every night, too. Never comes true.

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I have family but they wouldnt understand or care. No friends and therapy wouldnt work for me Im too far gone. Whats crying about everything in front of some stranger really gonna help? Hows it going to fix my problems? Theyll just prescribe some drug and charge me an arm and a leg for multiple sessions.

IDK man Im just all kinds of messed up and just not contributing anything to the world or even the to the people I care about. All I do is sleep go to work and sleep some more rinse repeat. And its getting harder every day to even do those things

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