Current Events > Depression just hit me like a ton of bricks

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Im lonely and sad and wondering why a certain girl doesnt like me and thinks Im a creep, even though I know its because Im fat, ugly and quiet.

I just want somebody to like me. Im trying to change, in 5 months Ive lost 63lbs but Im so far from where I want to be, and even when I do get there I still have a terrible personality.

I have a long day of work tomorrow, and I cant sleep because of anxiety and depression. All I want to do is cry.

Anyway, so thats it.
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It's okay to cry, and 63 in 5 months is an insane rate. You're handling that okay?
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Guide posted...

It's okay to cry, and 63 in 5 months is an insane rate. You're handling that okay?

Yeah but I havent been to the gym or anything just changed my diet. I get really hungry some days but Im tired of feeling awful physically, so I tough it out.

If only I could stop feeling awful mentally.
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There's all the usual advice, see a doc, workout to stabilize your brain a bit, sleep consistently, but aside from that, you know, it's okay to feel down too. Like, I can't tell you anything to help you to stop being down, I don't know how to solve that for myself, but at least don't put yourself down for feeling down. It's an easy trap to fall into.
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You've made some good progress, keep at it! The hardest part is sticking to the path of self-improvement when you've let it slide for so long. Just remember that even if it takes you years to get to where you want to be, if you don't start today (you're already ahead of the game since you've already made gains), and stick with it, you might never get there. You'll just be stuck spinning your wheels and never be truly happy or get what you really want out of life.

Try not to get hung up on just one girl. It sucks when your feelings aren't reciprocated, but it's a lot easier to find someone that likes you for you than it is to try to change somebody's mind. Me and far too many other guys have had to learn that the hard way.

Also, consider adding some exercise to your daily routine. While it isn't necessary by any means for weight loss (actually, the vast majority of weight loss is going to occur from dietary changes alone), it does have a slew of mental benefits and can really help to take the edge off the depression and make you feel like you're actually doing something with yourself. If you strength train it's very rewarding to see yourself getting stronger, etc.
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Thanks guys I really appreciate you trying to help, I just wish I could get out of this funk. I want to be normal. Im tired of living in my own head right now. So much pain.

Gonna go to sleep now and hope I feel better in the morning. Id like to get up super early and go to the gym before work but who knows if thatll happen. Im worried Ill overwork myself and wont be able to get anything done at my job.
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Just remember that nobody really ever thinks about you unless youre in front of them. So shoot your shot and bounce if it fails

NOM posted...

in 5 months Ive lost 63lbs

That's amazing and you should be proud of yourself.
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SpiralDrift posted...

NOM posted...

in 5 months Ive lost 63lbs

That's amazing and you should be proud of yourself.

Thank you and sometimes I am. I wish I could get to a point where Im proud of myself all the time.

And I cant sleep... goddamnit.
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