Current Events > I'm tired

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Worn down. Broken. I don't really know where else to turn. I just have CE to bitch on and that doesn't even help anymore. I start to change things in my life and feel better for a little bit, but I fall back into my old habits and wind up feeling even worse than before. I'm getting old, nobody wants me and I don't know how to connect with people. All the ones I've tried with don't give two squirts of piss about me. I'm undesirable physically and emotionally. I'm not smart. Just.... nobody cares.

I don't even know if I should post this. What's the point? I guess I will, since I already wrote it.

Let me clarify that I am in no way suicidal. I would love to disappear from my current life, situation and start anew somewhere else. But I'm not suicidal.

What the fuck am I doing? This site is frequented by teenagers and gimmick posters who couldn't give a shit about this sad sack shit poster right here. Guess I just needed to vent. Not that it helps.

Anyway, carry on.
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It can't be that bad bro
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Godnorgosh posted...

How old are you?

30
moose_knuckle posted...

It can't be that bad bro

I don't show it outwardly, but inside I'm wrought with sadness and pain.
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It can always be worse. You probably don't want to hear that but it's true.
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moose_knuckle posted...

It can always be worse. You probably don't want to hear that but it's true.

A lot of people have it way worse than me, and that's why I don't show how I really am inside to anyone irl. I use CE to vent.

Still doesn't make me feel any less sad or lonely.
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