Poll of the Day > I've been trying to accept Derealization / Depersonalization for over a year

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Ever since April 2018, I've been dealing with the sensation of everything I see is fake; like I'm in a dream, looking through a window/through someone else's vision or everything is foggy. Whenever I'm talking or listening to someone, I start to zone out and have a inner panic attack and it feels like I'm "not here". I don't smoke or drink anything (I've read smoking weed can trigger it), but I've had so much stress over the past decade (a really deep relationship I had for a few years had ended and still can't accept it being over, the passing of my Grandpa, Dog, and one of my closest friends. On top of that, my Mom and Grandma aren't doing too good, either).

Not sure if everything is hitting me at once, but I tried to embrace it since I've never been hurt from it. For example, driving to work is fine; I pay extra attention to the road signs and traffic. Other weird things I've noticed that time seems to speed up more in the past two years. I work in a warehouse and I get requests off the printer from hospital facilities to pull charts for scanning and uploading (not sure if all the walking around the warehouse just makes it go by faster, but four hours feels like two).

I've had my head checked for tumors, had lab work done and everything was normal. I was put on Xanax, but it didn't change; only made me tired. When I dream, they feel more life-like than when I'm awake. I looked into psychosis and Schizophrenia, but I don't hear voices or anything like that.

Maybe it'll go away after some time passes. I want to accept it, but it feels like it gets worse every month to the point I fear l may go catatonic or something. Does anyone here have or had that and any advice you can give?
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Hmmm dont know much about depersonalisation but derealisation hit me quite a few years ago. Not even sure where it came from, and disappeared just as suddenly.

Looking back on mine I think it was really mild. It only came back in 2017 when I was feeling depressed and was on medication for hayfever of all things. I would say just ride it out if its not too distressing, but thats probably not the best advice ...
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Stress
Stressing about stress causing more stress to stress about.
I've had that, the best remedies are letting go, exercise, and time.
None are easy though. You have to actively change things.
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