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ProfessorKukui posted...

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mediocre to shitty
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wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy
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Agonizing.
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Imagine hating everything and everyone in existence, but being so good at faking it that no one could tell.
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Incredible

It's alright until the existential apathy kicks in and you have to spend a day convincing yourself there are reasons for you to keep living. Then it goes back to being alright.
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Itchy... tasty
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Good days and bad days. Always in pain. Sometimes mistaken for a homeless person.
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I'm dissociating so hard I couldn't even tell you.

im always 3 steps ahead in the joke

which makes me look dumb

until time passes and people are like '...oh wait, lolz!'

and i'm like '...ugh.'
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Not sure if sick or body just hates me
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Terrible. The only thing going for me is that I'm surrounded by great people and live in a good country.
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a bit of a rollercoaster, with heightened sad as of late (with the exception of some scattered hours)
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Pretty good. There are things I'd like to change, but I definitely have it better than the vast majority of people.
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Nearly constantly in pain either my back or my head.
Always tired and almost perpetually sick.
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Sometimes it's fine, other times it's lonely, sometimes it sucks, sometimes it's great.
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Mediocrity. Only pull women because Im attractive, but you can only coast on that for so long
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It's not great. Get mistreated and disrespected by family constantly. No friends to talk to or hang out with, so there's no support system and life revolves around work and the family that mistreats you. Work to try and save so you can build a life of your own, but get sabotaged every step of the way and end up having to use the savings to bail family out of financial problems, with the threat of physical violence if you dont(or even threat of death). Anxiety and depression make it very difficult to function away from home, but being home just makes you miserable. The only support/kindness you get is from strangers online, and they eventually grow to hate you because you crave attention and positive feedback. Then you become such a nuisance that just being online bothers people to the point that they tell you you're unwelcome in their discord channels, then the only board where you feel free to discuss your issues gets shut down, leaving you with basically only 2 boards to post on both of which hate dealing with you... So yeah, once again feel like an outcast after thinking you finally found a place to fit in and people who cared. Failing at every aspect of life, and just all around being the most pathetic person on the planet.

Then you get to have random panic attacks when you see others being so much more successful without even trying. Then you get made the butt of jokes for being so far behind and made to feel like a freak, and worthless. And everyone else is achieving the goals you want as if they're nothing and treat it like its not even an accomplishment, and tell you you're not good enough to achieve them yourself, and accuse all the issues you're struggling as your own fault. Which doesn't help the inferiority complex and self esteem issues you're dealing with.

The feeling of total crushing failure when you know you won't ever succeed in any basic goals you have in life, which essentially are just to have friends, get a girlfriend, and maybe get an apartment. But you're such a failure that even those are just pipe dreams, so you bury your head in the sand and play video games/watch movies just to get a temporary escape from reality.
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Sorry Koga. Don't give up though.
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KogaSteelfang posted...

It's not great. Get mistreated and disrespected by family constantly. No friends to talk to or hang out with, so there's no support system and life revolves around work and the family that mistreats you. Work to try and save so you can build a life of your own, but get sabotaged every step of the way and end up having to use the savings to bail family out of financial problems, with the threat of physical violence if you dont(or even threat of death). Anxiety and depression make it very difficult to function away from home, but being home just makes you miserable. The only support/kindness you get is from strangers online, and they eventually grow to hate you because you crave attention and positive feedback. Then you become such a nuisance that just being online bothers people to the point that they tell you you're unwelcome in their discord channels, then the only board where you feel free to discuss your issues gets shut down, leaving you with basically only 2 boards to post on both of which hate dealing with you... So yeah, once again feel like an outcast after thinking you finally found a place to fit in and people who cared. Failing at every aspect of life, and just all around being the most pathetic person on the planet.

Then you get to have random panic attacks when you see others being so much more successful without even trying. Then you get made the butt of jokes for being so far behind and made to feel like a freak, and worthless. And everyone else is achieving the goals you want as if they're nothing and treat it like its not even an accomplishment, and tell you you're not good enough to achieve them yourself, and accuse all the issues you're struggling as your own fault. Which doesn't help the inferiority complex and self esteem issues you're dealing with.

The feeling of total crushing failure when you know you won't ever succeed in any basic goals you have in life, which essentially are just to have friends, get a girlfriend, and maybe get an apartment. But you're such a failure that even those are just pipe dreams, so you bury your head in the sand and play video games/watch movies just to get a temporary escape from reality.

Pretty much this. But worse.
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Vyrulisse posted...

Sorry Koga. Don't give up though.

I'm trying not too, but it's tough. More often than not I end up a ball of stress. Then I look for an outlet to relieve some pressure and end up just letting it all out at once, I get it, I can be overwhelming and frustrating when I do that(far too often too). When I had several smaller outlets it didn't seem so bad, but now that I'm just restricted back to potd and CE, I'm pretty sure I'm going to end up venting here a lot more again and just making things worse. >_<

AngryGrandpa posted...

Pretty much this. But worse.

You have my sympathy.
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SpinKirby posted...

ProfessorKukui posted...

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On paper good job that pays well and soon to be married.

Im 33 and just have this constant nagging feeling this is the best Ive had it and its all due to come crashing down. Plus the fear Ill never own my own house and I suffer from anxiety so constantly stressed at work. Im also hadnt with money. Dont have the will power to save and would love to lose about three stone as well but never do it.
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Im happy with my life

So pretty good
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My life is pretty damn good overall. Some things Id like to change but overall good.
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KogaSteelfang posted...

It's not great. Get mistreated and disrespected by family constantly. No friends to talk to or hang out with, so there's no support system and life revolves around work and the family that mistreats you. Work to try and save so you can build a life of your own, but get sabotaged every step of the way and end up having to use the savings to bail family out of financial problems, with the threat of physical violence if you dont(or even threat of death). Anxiety and depression make it very difficult to function away from home, but being home just makes you miserable. The only support/kindness you get is from strangers online, and they eventually grow to hate you because you crave attention and positive feedback. Then you become such a nuisance that just being online bothers people to the point that they tell you you're unwelcome in their discord channels, then the only board where you feel free to discuss your issues gets shut down, leaving you with basically only 2 boards to post on both of which hate dealing with you... So yeah, once again feel like an outcast after thinking you finally found a place to fit in and people who cared. Failing at every aspect of life, and just all around being the most pathetic person on the planet.

Then you get to have random panic attacks when you see others being so much more successful without even trying. Then you get made the butt of jokes for being so far behind and made to feel like a freak, and worthless. And everyone else is achieving the goals you want as if they're nothing and treat it like its not even an accomplishment, and tell you you're not good enough to achieve them yourself, and accuse all the issues you're struggling as your own fault. Which doesn't help the inferiority complex and self esteem issues you're dealing with.

The feeling of total crushing failure when you know you won't ever succeed in any basic goals you have in life, which essentially are just to have friends, get a girlfriend, and maybe get an apartment. But you're such a failure that even those are just pipe dreams, so you bury your head in the sand and play video games/watch movies just to get a temporary escape from reality.

this proves to me my life isn't all that bad, but some of it rings true on some level
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Being me is being a passionate individual, but an extremely flawed one nonetheless.
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Exciting and stressful. I've lived a very interesting life the past 5 years or so.
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v low self esteem and confidence

but otherwise it's okay
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