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RockRapDubstep 04/09/18 8:24:17 PM #1:	For those of you who don't know I was raped and beaten outside of my apartment a bit over a year ago. I cut ties with everyone, became extremely agoraphobic, severely depressed, and gained severe anxiety and even paranoia. Even having someone knock on my door would cause me to go lock myself in the bedroom or bathroom. I spent a year moping, going into a downward spiral, dropped to 90~ lbs, and didn't interact with anyone. Awhile back I started trying to fix that. Getting out just to for walks, maybe getting a dog or something, and then buy a gaming headset and try to start talking to people safely over the internet. I was doing good with the short walks for awhile but now I'm getting reclusive again and never did the rest. I feel my depression sinking worse than before and I don't know what to do. No friends, no family, my gf broke up with me a few months after it happened, no money, no insurance so I can't even see anyone. Really just starting to wonder why I'm even trying. --- God dan gets cold as difficult dick after 30 man hays or less. - pres_madagascar <cite>RockRapDubstep posted [p:899366470] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>For those of you who don't know I was raped and beaten outside of my apartment a bit over a year ago. I cut ties with everyone, became extremely agoraphobic, severely depressed, and gained severe anxiety and even paranoia. Even having someone knock on my door would cause me to go lock myself in the bedroom or bathroom. I spent a year moping, going into a downward spiral, dropped to 90~ lbs, and didn't interact with anyone. Awhile back I started trying to fix that. Getting out just to for walks, maybe getting a dog or something, and then buy a gaming headset and try to start talking to people safely over the internet. I was doing good with the short walks for awhile but now I'm getting reclusive again and never did the rest. I feel my depression sinking worse than before and I don't know what to do. No friends, no family, my gf broke up with me a few months after it happened, no money, no insurance so I can't even see anyone. Really just starting to wonder why I'm even trying.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Kid_Buu 04/09/18 8:26:44 PM #2:	sorry TC... hugs --- anime girls either need a dick or thicc for me to want to have relations with them im kaname btw <cite>Kid_Buu posted [p:899366654] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>sorry TC... hugs</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Ben_Ruggiero 04/09/18 8:28:01 PM #3:	Guy or girl? --- A wiseguy never pays for his drinks <cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted [p:899366733] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>Guy or girl?</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Sariana21 04/09/18 8:28:34 PM #4:	There likely is some sort of a help line in your community whether you have insurance or not. Try to find it so that you can get some help. There ARE resources out there. Don't give up on yourself. --- ___ Sari, Mom to DS (07/04) and DD (01/08) <cite>Sariana21 posted [p:899366758] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>There likely is some sort of a help line in your community whether you have insurance or not. Try to find it so that you can get some help. There ARE resources out there. Don't give up on yourself.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
JustMonika 04/09/18 8:28:38 PM #5:	Ben_Ruggiero posted... Guy or girl? Why does that even matter? --- https://i.imgur.com/i3PdjTR.gifv <cite>JustMonika posted [p:899366766] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote>Guy or girl?</quote> Why does that even matter?</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Orthopox12 04/09/18 8:29:39 PM #6:	Im sorry someone hurt you like that, Im afraid to give yoy advice simply because I have not experienced what you have. --- Official contributor to the Legendary "Cantina" Topic {Current clone: Orthopox 28} <cite>Orthopox12 posted [p:899366830] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>Im sorry someone hurt you like that, Im afraid to give yoy advice simply because I have not experienced what you have.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
HotMaladorianAI 04/09/18 8:30:44 PM #7:	I remember you posting about this a few months ago and wouldn't suggest you go through it again since a solid portion of users didn't believe you and thought you were a gimmick, so this might not be a positive outlet for you. --- I find your lack of faith disturbing <cite>HotMaladorianAI posted [p:899366890] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>I remember you posting about this a few months ago and wouldn't suggest you go through it again since a solid portion of users didn't believe you and thought you were a gimmick, so this might not be a positive outlet for you.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Smashingpmkns 04/09/18 8:32:19 PM #8:	Have you ever thought of applying for government aid? --- Clean Butt Crew <cite>Smashingpmkns posted [p:899367003] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>Have you ever thought of applying for government aid?</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Ben_Ruggiero 04/09/18 8:33:03 PM #9:	JustMonika posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... Guy or girl? Why does that even matter? Why wouldn't it matter? --- A wiseguy never pays for his drinks <cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted [p:899367045] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>JustMonika posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote>Guy or girl?</quote> Why does that even matter?</quote> Why wouldn't it matter?</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Still__Rippin 04/09/18 8:34:03 PM #10:	You say you dont know what to do, but you do know because you are aware you are currently doing the opposite of what you should do. Going back to old hermit like habits wont help at all and will only serve to drag you backwards. Look at it this way, it already happened, the chances it will ever happen again are astronomically low. You really just have to step by step out yourself back out there and use this experience to empower you and embrace it rather than trying to run from it and hold you back. Set some small goals for yourself and each day work towards checking them off until you feel more and more comfortable doing bigger and better things --- Always into weird feared, dark type girls. Im into hood type aint afraid to fight girls that be like dead ass, I put that on my life girl <cite>Still__Rippin posted [p:899367130] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>You say you dont know what to do, but you do know because you are aware you are currently doing the opposite of what you should do. Going back to old hermit like habits wont help at all and will only serve to drag you backwards. Look at it this way, it already happened, the chances it will ever happen again are astronomically low. You really just have to step by step out yourself back out there and use this experience to empower you and embrace it rather than trying to run from it and hold you back. Set some small goals for yourself and each day work towards checking them off until you feel more and more comfortable doing bigger and better things </quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
TheVipaGTS 04/09/18 8:35:45 PM #11:	Ben_Ruggiero posted... JustMonika posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... Guy or girl? Why does that even matter? Why wouldn't it matter? why does it? --- Dallas Cowboys: 1 - 1 <cite>TheVipaGTS posted [p:899367248] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>JustMonika posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote>Guy or girl?</quote> Why does that even matter?</quote> Why wouldn't it matter?</quote> why does it?</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
LockeMonster 04/09/18 8:37:28 PM #12:	I'm sorry if you don't want to talk about this, but can you provide more information on how it happened and what city this was in? That's very scary and I'm very sorry you went through this. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here. Have you ever thought about just leaving your area and going somewhere else to start over? --- "Scranton is great, but New York is like Scranton on acid. No, on speed. Nah. On steroids." FC: 3282-3258-0224 <cite>LockeMonster posted [p:899367358] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>I'm sorry if you don't want to talk about this, but can you provide more information on how it happened and what city this was in? That's very scary and I'm very sorry you went through this. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here. Have you ever thought about just leaving your area and going somewhere else to start over?</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
MabusIncarnate 04/09/18 8:37:56 PM #13:	HotMaladorianAI posted... I remember you posting about this a few months ago and wouldn't suggest you go through it again since a solid portion of users didn't believe you and thought you were a gimmick, so this might not be a positive outlet for you. This, and there's already a couple of the CE toxic in this thread waiting to pounce. I don't think this is the right place to seek help or advice for something like this. I don't see anything positive coming from it. --- Ten million dollars on a losing campaign Twenty million starving and writhing in pain <cite>MabusIncarnate posted [p:899367386] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>HotMaladorianAI posted...</cite> <quote>I remember you posting about this a few months ago and wouldn't suggest you go through it again since a solid portion of users didn't believe you and thought you were a gimmick, so this might not be a positive outlet for you.</quote> This, and there's already a couple of the CE toxic in this thread waiting to pounce. I don't think this is the right place to seek help or advice for something like this. I don't see anything positive coming from it.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
kingdrake2 04/09/18 8:38:30 PM #14:	CE is here for you. and the government aid thing is a possibility you can qualify for. --- I'm pretty much Stu from Rugrats making pudding at 4 in morning because I've lost control of my life - Polycosm <cite>kingdrake2 posted [p:899367430] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>CE is here for you. and the government aid thing is a possibility you can qualify for.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
nevershine 04/09/18 8:40:33 PM #15:	I'm really sorry that this happened to you, and I hope you seek out legit help. Maybe a hot line or something so you've got someone to talk to about this, or they can at least provide other resources you can use. --- "There are no men like me. There's only me."-Jaime Lannister https://m.imgur.com/fpLYQa3 <cite>nevershine posted [p:899367605] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>I'm really sorry that this happened to you, and I hope you seek out legit help. Maybe a hot line or something so you've got someone to talk to about this, or they can at least provide other resources you can use.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Ben_Ruggiero 04/09/18 8:41:17 PM #16:	TheVipaGTS posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... JustMonika posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... Guy or girl? Why does that even matter? Why wouldn't it matter? why does it? I'm just curious how a man gets raped by another man right in front of his apartment. --- A wiseguy never pays for his drinks <cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted [p:899367657] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>TheVipaGTS posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>JustMonika posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote>Guy or girl?</quote> Why does that even matter?</quote> Why wouldn't it matter?</quote> why does it?</quote> I'm just curious how a man gets raped by another man right in front of his apartment.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
PhazonReborn 04/09/18 8:41:49 PM #17:	Seek help outside CE man --- The Phazon you know and trust since 2004 Steam ID: AncientToaster / PSN ID: LiteralToaster <cite>PhazonReborn posted [p:899367690] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>Seek help outside CE man</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
ave1 04/09/18 8:44:20 PM #18:	Well, if the victim is a guy, the homosexual act of the rapist on his heterosexual self might need to be taken into account when providing counsel... While if this is a lesbian girl who had a girlfriend who broke up with her, she might need different advice to handle this... Very different if you think about it. --- I have a new sig and this is it. <cite>ave1 posted [p:899367851] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>Well, if the victim is a guy, the homosexual act of the rapist on his heterosexual self might need to be taken into account when providing counsel... While if this is a lesbian girl who had a girlfriend who broke up with her, she might need different advice to handle this... Very different if you think about it.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
kingdrake2 04/09/18 8:46:10 PM #19:	PhazonReborn posted... Seek help outside CE man i'm all for this advise but shrinks cost money. therapy does work. --- I'm pretty much Stu from Rugrats making pudding at 4 in morning because I've lost control of my life - Polycosm <cite>kingdrake2 posted [p:899367971] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>PhazonReborn posted...</cite> <quote>Seek help outside CE man</quote> i'm all for this advise but shrinks cost money. therapy does work.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
PhazonReborn 04/09/18 8:51:56 PM #20:	kingdrake2 posted... PhazonReborn posted... Seek help outside CE man i'm all for this advise but shrinks cost money. therapy does work. This place is not what he really needs --- The Phazon you know and trust since 2004 Steam ID: AncientToaster / PSN ID: LiteralToaster <cite>PhazonReborn posted [p:899368380] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>kingdrake2 posted...</cite> <quote><cite>PhazonReborn posted...</cite> <quote>Seek help outside CE man</quote> i'm all for this advise but shrinks cost money. therapy does work.</quote> This place is not what he really needs</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
RockRapDubstep 04/09/18 9:17:19 PM #21:	Instead of quoting everyone I'll just say thanks to those offering support. As for looking into my options and resources available to me I was trying to do that before I started declining again. I don't know anything about that stuff so I'm having to figure it out all out, particularly with government assistance stuff, I'm completely ignorant. To the guy obsessing over if I'm a guy or a girl, and to the other guy just curious what happened. I'm a male, in the Dallas area, really small (5'3"), and there were two men about average build that I didn't know and weren't caught. Wasn't really anything I could do given my size, I tried but ended up with a broken jaw, wrist, some ribs, among other things. Don't know who did it or why they did it. I'm not in a financial situation where I can move right now so I'm stuck here. And to those pointing out the stats that it probably wouldn't happen again, I'm well aware of that. Logically I know there's basically a 0% chance of anything like that happening again, but that's not how crippling agoraphobia and anxiety work. It's not based on logic. And I remember some people being assholes in the last topic but there was more good than bad and CE is my only social outlet. I was trying to work up to using my voice in online games but I need a headset and more importantly to get over my crippling anxiety about it before I can. I figured that'd be a good first step but I failed pretty quickly. Professional help is what I need but I can't afford it or find anything. I found two local support groups but they were both female only to be a safe space for women. Finding it hard to get out of bed most days or even summon the will power to try. Also, thanks for your PM @mipond --- God dan gets cold as difficult dick after 30 man hays or less. - pres_madagascar <cite>RockRapDubstep posted [p:899370080] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>Instead of quoting everyone I'll just say thanks to those offering support. As for looking into my options and resources available to me I was trying to do that before I started declining again. I don't know anything about that stuff so I'm having to figure it out all out, particularly with government assistance stuff, I'm completely ignorant. To the guy obsessing over if I'm a guy or a girl, and to the other guy just curious what happened. I'm a male, in the Dallas area, really small (5'3"), and there were two men about average build that I didn't know and weren't caught. Wasn't really anything I could do given my size, I tried but ended up with a broken jaw, wrist, some ribs, among other things. Don't know who did it or why they did it. I'm not in a financial situation where I can move right now so I'm stuck here. And to those pointing out the stats that it probably wouldn't happen again, I'm well aware of that. Logically I know there's basically a 0% chance of anything like that happening again, but that's not how crippling agoraphobia and anxiety work. It's not based on logic. And I remember some people being assholes in the last topic but there was more good than bad and CE is my only social outlet. I was trying to work up to using my voice in online games but I need a headset and more importantly to get over my crippling anxiety about it before I can. I figured that'd be a good first step but I failed pretty quickly. Professional help is what I need but I can't afford it or find anything. I found two local support groups but they were both female only to be a safe space for women. Finding it hard to get out of bed most days or even summon the will power to try. Also, thanks for your PM @mipond</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
ChainedRedone 04/09/18 9:19:08 PM #22:	Ben_Ruggiero posted... TheVipaGTS posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... JustMonika posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... Guy or girl? Why does that even matter? Why wouldn't it matter? why does it? I'm just curious how a man gets raped by another man right in front of his apartment. Probably by being overpowered. That wasn't so hard, was it? --- David Mink. Hero. https://c1.staticflickr.com/7/6043/6337878059_009dd4c4f3_z.jpg <cite>ChainedRedone posted [p:899370197] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>TheVipaGTS posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>JustMonika posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote>Guy or girl?</quote> Why does that even matter?</quote> Why wouldn't it matter?</quote> why does it?</quote> I'm just curious how a man gets raped by another man right in front of his apartment.</quote> Probably by being overpowered. That wasn't so hard, was it?</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Ben_Ruggiero 04/09/18 9:21:56 PM #23:	ChainedRedone posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... TheVipaGTS posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... JustMonika posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... Guy or girl? Why does that even matter? Why wouldn't it matter? why does it? I'm just curious how a man gets raped by another man right in front of his apartment. Probably by being overpowered. That wasn't so hard, was it? Unless he was unconscious or there was more than one person yea I'd say it would be pretty damn hard --- A wiseguy never pays for his drinks <cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted [p:899370398] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>ChainedRedone posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>TheVipaGTS posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>JustMonika posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote>Guy or girl?</quote> Why does that even matter?</quote> Why wouldn't it matter?</quote> why does it?</quote> I'm just curious how a man gets raped by another man right in front of his apartment.</quote> Probably by being overpowered. That wasn't so hard, was it?</quote> Unless he was unconscious or there was more than one person yea I'd say it would be pretty damn hard</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Slip-N-Slide 04/09/18 9:22:12 PM #24:	Ben_Ruggiero posted... TheVipaGTS posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... JustMonika posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... Guy or girl? Why does that even matter? Why wouldn't it matter? why does it? I'm just curious how a man gets raped by another man right in front of his apartment. You're a massive piece of shit for saying something like that. --- Get wet. http://i.imgtc.com/2q3z3TmhFO.jpg <cite>Slip-N-Slide posted [p:899370413] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>TheVipaGTS posted...</cite> <quote> <cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote> <cite>JustMonika posted...</cite> <quote> <cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote> Guy or girl? </quote> Why does that even matter? </quote> Why wouldn't it matter? </quote> why does it?</quote> I'm just curious how a man gets raped by another man right in front of his apartment.</quote> You're a massive piece of shit for saying something like that.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Zikten 04/09/18 9:22:19 PM #25:	I hope you can find help. there has to be some kind of free program you can use. have you just tried talking to a social worker and asking for advice? maybe they know of a program you weren't aware of <cite>Zikten posted [p:899370418] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>I hope you can find help. there has to be some kind of free program you can use. have you just tried talking to a social worker and asking for advice? maybe they know of a program you weren't aware of</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
uwnim 04/09/18 9:26:18 PM #26:	Ben_Ruggiero posted... Unless he was unconscious or there was more than one person yea I'd say it would be pretty damn hard He's 5'3" that's a lot smaller than an average male, so even one person should have been able to overpower TC. He says there were two though, so that makes it pretty much impossible for TC to have done anything. --- I want a pet Lavos Spawn. [Order of the Cetaceans: Phocoena dioptrica] <cite>uwnim posted [p:899370670] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote> Unless he was unconscious or there was more than one person yea I'd say it would be pretty damn hard</quote> He's 5'3" that's a lot smaller than an average male, so even one person should have been able to overpower TC. He says there were two though, so that makes it pretty much impossible for TC to have done anything.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Ben_Ruggiero 04/09/18 9:28:37 PM #27:	uwnim posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... Unless he was unconscious or there was more than one person yea I'd say it would be pretty damn hard He's 5'3" that's a lot smaller than an average male, so even one person should have been able to overpower TC. He says there were two though, so that makes it pretty much impossible for TC to have done anything. Then I rest my case. I probably wouldn't be able to defend myself against two guys either especially being that small. --- A wiseguy never pays for his drinks <cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted [p:899370831] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>uwnim posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote> Unless he was unconscious or there was more than one person yea I'd say it would be pretty damn hard</quote> He's 5'3" that's a lot smaller than an average male, so even one person should have been able to overpower TC. He says there were two though, so that makes it pretty much impossible for TC to have done anything.</quote> Then I rest my case. I probably wouldn't be able to defend myself against two guys either especially being that small.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
powerman1426 04/09/18 9:31:55 PM #28:	Ben_Ruggiero posted... ChainedRedone posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... TheVipaGTS posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... JustMonika posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... Guy or girl? Why does that even matter? Why wouldn't it matter? why does it? I'm just curious how a man gets raped by another man right in front of his apartment. Probably by being overpowered. That wasn't so hard, was it? Unless he was unconscious or there was more than one person yea I'd say it would be pretty damn hard Nice victim blaming. Shut the fuck up --- Troll free https://www.gamefaqs.com/boards/1439-the-help-desk https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/boards/1309-tradesmen-and-diyers http://i.imgtc.com/6wdOONn9kF.gif <cite>powerman1426 posted [p:899371049] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>ChainedRedone posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>TheVipaGTS posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>JustMonika posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote>Guy or girl?</quote> Why does that even matter?</quote> Why wouldn't it matter?</quote> why does it?</quote> I'm just curious how a man gets raped by another man right in front of his apartment.</quote> Probably by being overpowered. That wasn't so hard, was it?</quote> Unless he was unconscious or there was more than one person yea I'd say it would be pretty damn hard</quote> Nice victim blaming. Shut the fuck up</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
ShotgunSilencer 04/09/18 9:33:09 PM #29:	Just search google for medical assistance in your county. The website will give you all the information you need and point you in the right direction. There is a lot of help out there, especially for mental and emotional conditions. I just helped my brother get all set up with that stuff. He has really bad anxiety and no money. <cite>ShotgunSilencer posted [p:899371133] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>Just search google for medical assistance in your county. The website will give you all the information you need and point you in the right direction. There is a lot of help out there, especially for mental and emotional conditions. I just helped my brother get all set up with that stuff. He has really bad anxiety and no money.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Virus731 04/09/18 9:38:38 PM #30:	TheVipaGTS posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... JustMonika posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... Guy or girl? Why does that even matter? Why wouldn't it matter? why does it? CE in a nutshell. --- I hope this **in' world **in' burns away And I'd kill you all if I had my way <cite>Virus731 posted [p:899371480] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>TheVipaGTS posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>JustMonika posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote>Guy or girl?</quote> Why does that even matter?</quote> Why wouldn't it matter?</quote> why does it?</quote> CE in a nutshell.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Slip-N-Slide 04/10/18 9:56:24 AM #31:	powerman1426 posted... Nice victim blaming. Shut the fuck up This. --- Get wet. http://i.imgtc.com/2q3z3TmhFO.jpg <cite>Slip-N-Slide posted [p:899397402] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>powerman1426 posted...</cite> <quote>Nice victim blaming. Shut the fuck up</quote> This.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
ave1 04/10/18 10:01:25 AM #32:	Carry mace around with you. You can definitely gain confidence back if you have a way of defending yourself. --- I have a new sig and this is it. <cite>ave1 posted [p:899397568] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>Carry mace around with you. You can definitely gain confidence back if you have a way of defending yourself.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
bulletproofvita 04/10/18 10:21:58 AM #33:	I'm sorry to hear that TC. Yes it's crippling and there is not much any of us can say because we can't change your life. Try to find hope even if it seems there's no future. Online gaming is a start, it's safe and there are plenty of friends waiting for you. Also we are here to hear you vent or anything you would like to share. --- Signatures are overrated. <cite>bulletproofvita posted [p:899398371] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>I'm sorry to hear that TC. Yes it's crippling and there is not much any of us can say because we can't change your life. Try to find hope even if it seems there's no future. Online gaming is a start, it's safe and there are plenty of friends waiting for you. Also we are here to hear you vent or anything you would like to share.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
RockRapDubstep 04/11/18 11:21:04 AM #34:	Excluding that other guy, thanks everyone. If I'm not responding to you directly its because all I have to say is thanks. Zikten posted... I hope you can find help. there has to be some kind of free program you can use. have you just tried talking to a social worker and asking for advice? maybe they know of a program you weren't aware of No but I kind of struggle to talk to people so I don't know if I'd even be able to. Even online I have trouble let alone on the phone or in person. ShotgunSilencer posted... Just search google for medical assistance in your county. The website will give you all the information you need and point you in the right direction. There is a lot of help out there, especially for mental and emotional conditions. I just helped my brother get all set up with that stuff. He has really bad anxiety and no money. I'll try doing that again. Issue will be calling or making myself go. It's impossible to explain to someone who hasn't experienced agoraphobia what it's like because it should be so easy. I don't fully understand it myself. ave1 posted... Carry mace around with you. You can definitely gain confidence back if you have a way of defending yourself. I have some and went for walks with it a few times and I think it was stressing me out more, like making me think of a bunch of situations that I know wouldn't happen so I started going for walks without it since those are the feelings I'm trying to stop. But it's better than what someone in the last topic suggested, which was a gun. That likely wouldn't go very well. --- God dan gets cold as difficult dick after 30 man hays or less. - pres_madagascar <cite>RockRapDubstep posted [p:899463488] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>Excluding that other guy, thanks everyone. If I'm not responding to you directly its because all I have to say is thanks. <cite>Zikten posted...</cite> <quote>I hope you can find help. there has to be some kind of free program you can use. have you just tried talking to a social worker and asking for advice? maybe they know of a program you weren't aware of</quote> No but I kind of struggle to talk to people so I don't know if I'd even be able to. Even online I have trouble let alone on the phone or in person. <cite>ShotgunSilencer posted...</cite> <quote>Just search google for medical assistance in your county. The website will give you all the information you need and point you in the right direction. There is a lot of help out there, especially for mental and emotional conditions. I just helped my brother get all set up with that stuff. He has really bad anxiety and no money.</quote> I'll try doing that again. Issue will be calling or making myself go. It's impossible to explain to someone who hasn't experienced agoraphobia what it's like because it should be so easy. I don't fully understand it myself. <cite>ave1 posted...</cite> <quote>Carry mace around with you. You can definitely gain confidence back if you have a way of defending yourself.</quote> I have some and went for walks with it a few times and I think it was stressing me out more, like making me think of a bunch of situations that I know wouldn't happen so I started going for walks without it since those are the feelings I'm trying to stop. But it's better than what someone in the last topic suggested, which was a gun. That likely wouldn't go very well.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
JustMonika 04/11/18 11:24:35 AM #35:	Do you attend any sort of therapy or victim counseling? --- https://i.imgur.com/i3PdjTR.gifv <cite>JustMonika posted [p:899463660] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>Do you attend any sort of therapy or victim counseling?</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
RockRapDubstep 04/11/18 11:33:01 AM #36:	Really just feeling like I'm a broken person beyond repair. Been over a year and I can't even handle a random knock at the door without freaking out and I don't even know what I'm actually freaked out about in the first place. Yet I was a relatively normal person before all this. Maybe some occasional like anxiety or something but nothing major or even worthy of medication. Had friends, some family, a girlfriend. Now I don't have any of that and can't even speak to someone over the internet well in a direct conversation. A couple Christian fundamentalists in the family basically disowned me over it, my mom was really supportive in the first few months but I guess she eventually had enough of me not going to events like holidays and stuff, not calling, I even skipped out on a family friends funeral. Same things with friends and my gf. I never told my friends though, only the police, my mom, and girlfriend at the time since I couldn't exactly not since I was hospitalized at the time. I guess at least a good portion of this is on me, can't blame anyone else for me alienating everyone. I'm sure others could but I'm feeling like I can't come back from this, the fact that it fucked me over so much that I went from being what I was to what I am now. I want things to be the same again, which they can't be, but even close would be good enough, but I don't feel like it'll happen. Which again I guess my own attitude is part of the problem here, can't blame anyone else for that. --- God dan gets cold as difficult dick after 30 man hays or less. - pres_madagascar <cite>RockRapDubstep posted [p:899464065] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>Really just feeling like I'm a broken person beyond repair. Been over a year and I can't even handle a random knock at the door without freaking out and I don't even know what I'm actually freaked out about in the first place. Yet I was a relatively normal person before all this. Maybe some occasional like anxiety or something but nothing major or even worthy of medication. Had friends, some family, a girlfriend. Now I don't have any of that and can't even speak to someone over the internet well in a direct conversation. A couple Christian fundamentalists in the family basically disowned me over it, my mom was really supportive in the first few months but I guess she eventually had enough of me not going to events like holidays and stuff, not calling, I even skipped out on a family friends funeral. Same things with friends and my gf. I never told my friends though, only the police, my mom, and girlfriend at the time since I couldn't exactly not since I was hospitalized at the time. I guess at least a good portion of this is on me, can't blame anyone else for me alienating everyone. I'm sure others could but I'm feeling like I can't come back from this, the fact that it fucked me over so much that I went from being what I was to what I am now. I want things to be the same again, which they can't be, but even close would be good enough, but I don't feel like it'll happen. Which again I guess my own attitude is part of the problem here, can't blame anyone else for that.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
JustMonika 04/11/18 11:36:28 AM #37:	RockRapDubstep posted... I guess at least a good portion of this is on me No it isn't. None of this is your fault, you need to try not to think like that. You can try talking to the national sexual assault hotline, if you don't think you can manage visiting a group or therapist. I don't know if you live in the states or not. --- https://i.imgur.com/i3PdjTR.gifv <cite>JustMonika posted [p:899464226] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>RockRapDubstep posted...</cite> <quote>I guess at least a good portion of this is on me</quote> No it isn't. None of this is your fault, you need to try not to think like that. You can try talking to the national sexual assault hotline, if you don't think you can manage visiting a group or therapist. I don't know if you live in the states or not.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
RockRapDubstep 04/11/18 11:38:09 AM #38:	JustMonika posted... Do you attend any sort of therapy or victim counseling? I went to therapy one time after it happened, my mom paid. I felt guilty about my mom paying and they wanted to put me on expensive medication as well and I just didn't like the lady, didn't like talking about it, or anything. I was going to see a Christian counselor, not because of the Christian part but because she offered a free service but she retired. The only two support groups I found locally searching were for women only. Plus even just getting out of the house to go is a hurdle itself. --- God dan gets cold as difficult dick after 30 man hays or less. - pres_madagascar <cite>RockRapDubstep posted [p:899464322] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>JustMonika posted...</cite> <quote>Do you attend any sort of therapy or victim counseling?</quote> I went to therapy one time after it happened, my mom paid. I felt guilty about my mom paying and they wanted to put me on expensive medication as well and I just didn't like the lady, didn't like talking about it, or anything. I was going to see a Christian counselor, not because of the Christian part but because she offered a free service but she retired. The only two support groups I found locally searching were for women only. Plus even just getting out of the house to go is a hurdle itself.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
RockRapDubstep 04/11/18 11:40:44 AM #39:	JustMonika posted... RockRapDubstep posted... I guess at least a good portion of this is on me No it isn't. None of this is your fault, you need to try not to think like that. You can try talking to the national sexual assault hotline, if you don't think you can manage visiting a group or therapist. I don't know if you live in the states or not. I know that me thinking about it like that is part of the problem so then I just get stuck in a mental loop of me being the problem. Not sure how to stop that, which then just makes it worse. I guess I could try that, might just end up hanging up though but I guess it wouldn't hurt to try at least. --- God dan gets cold as difficult dick after 30 man hays or less. - pres_madagascar <cite>RockRapDubstep posted [p:899464458] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>JustMonika posted...</cite> <quote><cite>RockRapDubstep posted...</cite> <quote> I guess at least a good portion of this is on me</quote> No it isn't. None of this is your fault, you need to try not to think like that. You can try talking to the national sexual assault hotline, if you don't think you can manage visiting a group or therapist. I don't know if you live in the states or not.</quote> I know that me thinking about it like that is part of the problem so then I just get stuck in a mental loop of me being the problem. Not sure how to stop that, which then just makes it worse. I guess I could try that, might just end up hanging up though but I guess it wouldn't hurt to try at least.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
Dyinglegacy 04/11/18 11:41:31 AM #40:	Sorry, TC. If I could heinously murder the perpetrators for you, and get away it, I would. --- I tried to think of something clever to put here. <cite>Dyinglegacy posted [p:899464490] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote>Sorry, TC. If I could heinously murder the perpetrators for you, and get away it, I would.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
JustMonika 04/11/18 11:44:26 AM #41:	RockRapDubstep posted... I guess I could try that, might just end up hanging up though but I guess it wouldn't hurt to try at least. Yeah and it's alright if you hang up, just keep trying as many times as it takes. --- https://i.imgur.com/i3PdjTR.gifv <cite>JustMonika posted [p:899464635] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>RockRapDubstep posted...</cite> <quote>I guess I could try that, might just end up hanging up though but I guess it wouldn't hurt to try at least.</quote> Yeah and it's alright if you hang up, just keep trying as many times as it takes.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
The-Apostle 04/11/18 11:47:41 AM #42:	Ben_Ruggiero posted... ChainedRedone posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... TheVipaGTS posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... JustMonika posted... Ben_Ruggiero posted... Guy or girl? Why does that even matter? Why wouldn't it matter? why does it? I'm just curious how a man gets raped by another man right in front of his apartment. Probably by being overpowered. That wasn't so hard, was it? Unless he was unconscious or there was more than one person yea I'd say it would be pretty damn hard He's 5'3. I'm sure it's really not that hard. --- http://goo.gl/mnO36O #GoPackGo Not changing sig until NHL players are allowed to play in the Olympics. Started 2/22/2018 <cite>The-Apostle posted [p:899464801] in I'm relaps... [t:76501570]...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>ChainedRedone posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>TheVipaGTS posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote><cite>JustMonika posted...</cite> <quote><cite>Ben_Ruggiero posted...</cite> <quote>Guy or girl?</quote> Why does that even matter?</quote> Why wouldn't it matter?</quote> why does it?</quote> I'm just curious how a man gets raped by another man right in front of his apartment.</quote> Probably by being overpowered. That wasn't so hard, was it?</quote> Unless he was unconscious or there was more than one person yea I'd say it would be pretty damn hard</quote> He's 5'3. I'm sure it's really not that hard.</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
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