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super_felicia posted...
Can you elaborate on the human sounding part?

You sound like English is your second language. You might be experiencing acts of mania.

youre correct on your outline of what I have explained

Alright dude, I say this with earnest intentions. Not to make feel bad, even if that ends up being the end result.

This idea you have in your head that your straight, married therapist is going to suddenly go gay and fall in love with you is absolutely never going to happen. The only reason hes even taking an interest in you in the first place is because hes being paid to do so. Once you leave the appointment you most likely do not cross his mind at all until your next scheduled appointment.

That doesnt mean he doesnt care about you, he rather you thrive than die Im sure, but his end goal (if hes a legit licensed professional) is to eventually get you to a place where your mentally stable enough to never ever have to see him again.

His end goal is to eventually get you to a point where you dont need him in your life anymore. Thats not conducive of any type of friendship, no less any type of relationship.

The fact that your so obsessed with him that your literally sharing a random youtube video on the GameFaqs sex board because the guy in it sounds like your crush means this entire fixation is entirely unhealthy.

Because of the fixation youve found yourself in with him, you arent going to get any benefit from seeing him anymore.

Each time you visit him your mental state deteriorates deeper into this fantasy world, that LUCKILY, you have not deluded yourself into thinking could possibly become a reality. The fact that you realize this is a problem is a good sign for you and your future mental wellbeing.

My advice to you, quite honestly, is to stop seeing the therapist immediately. Go check yourself into a mental institution. It should be free (if you are in a large city) and you should be able to check yourself out at any point. Be brutally honest with the people in that institution, and start to work on getting your mind right, and dealing with this mania.

I am not a licensed professional, so all my advice is just my own opinion. But it does sound like youve ostracized yourself away from society, and have basically just been living on the internet for a while. It shows in your text patterns and overall behavior. Its possible, that you became terminally online during a crucial period of mental and physical maturitymeaning you stunted your development.

You are now an adult, but have not yet learn how to operate out in the real world, and interact with other human beings. Doing so causes you experience emotions that the rest of us learned to deal with when we were in our teenage years. Trying to navigate all of these social structures without any proper practice comes with certain hardships.

So I recommended checking yourself into a facility, and then once you check yourself out, try your hardest to be outside in the company of other people as much as possible.

The good news is that people live for a long time. Youre only twenty something. Youve got plenty of time to eventually live a normal, happy, productive life, complete with a partner that loves you. But, you gotta start working on yourself now. Like right now. Today.

Nice how he thinks but he's guessing everything about me when I explicitly mention in the first post I go college 3 times a week, I want to not love him i want to love someone like him and closer to my age, I had to explain it a lot for some reason it drove me a bit up the wall how inaccurate his analysis of me was.