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I'm really sorry to hear that and completely understand what you're going through.

My 19 year old cat passed away July 16th last year. It wasn't unexpected and she actually gave me ~6 weeks longer than her diagnosis but I was still absolutely devastated. She was my tiny shadow who followed me everywhere.

What was unexpected was my 8 year old boy passed away unexpectedly on January 10th this year. He just got breathing difficulties out of nowhere, spent $4000 in emergency vet bills the day it happened and there was nothing they could do to save him and they couldn't even say what was the cause. I'll never forget how he was looking at me and his cries asking me to help him. There was no limit to what I was willing to spend to save him and I still feel like I failed him even today.

It does get easier over time but the sadness will never truly go away. I'm not ashamed to say I broke down crying about them both earlier this week after being ok for quite some time. And I'm definitely not usually an emotional person.

I don't know if it will help you but I made a shrine in a display cabinet for them both. Photos, paw print and their ashes side by side. It's on prominent display in the room I'm most frequently in.