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mustachedmystic posted...

Im so sorry you had an abusive father, and I probably shouldnt be criticizing at this time, but youre obviously a good person, and because of such, I believe you might grow to regret threatening the man like that when he is on his death bed.

I dont feel regret or remorse. Part of the trauma response from being raised by these people.

I did not speak to my mother for most of the 16 years after I moved out before she died. Maybe a sentence here or there on the phone. But Ive never regretted it.

Being beaten with a belt, yelled at for things you didnt do, no matter how much proof, evidence, or convincing you tried, and then being beaten harder for denying it

So yeah... Ive mentioned I probably wont feel much going on. Im willing to help in this situation, and I feel like he probably already would have died if I wasnt around to help as much as Im trying to... but that doesnt mean Im willing to let him break boundaries I have for how he raised me.

Im not upset for you feeling that maybe I should be kinder, but I also feel that my mental health also needs its priority and my ptsd has been triggered so Im now dealing with flashbacks from this... and Im having a panic attack.

Boundaries are healthy. Dying give a person a right to break them.