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Well, my episode finally ended abruptly last night. I ate a real meal for the first time in two weeks and it tasted so good. I'm afraid of something triggering it again, I want to remain on this plane of reality.

adjl posted...

And more than just not being attractive, it's exhausting. You may well find somebody who likes you well enough to stick around, but being in a relationship with somebody who leans on you 24/7 to avoid slipping into crippling depression wears on a person and creates a really unhealthy relationship dynamic in which the dependee feels like they can't leave without harming the dependent one. Even if you stop feeling depressed when you're with someone, you should be taking advantage of that temporary motivation to get yourself into some sort of therapy to help you work through those challenges and not depend on relationships to be sane.

Yeah I've been trying to get mental help, it is as they say quite "American". Aka I have an appointment scheduled in February, and it coming out of pocket. So basically I have absolutely nothing that can help me at this moment. And that's just for medication with some psychiatrist known for handing out pills and not conversating, not therapy. I think you're not American, but yeah it really is that bad over here.

At least I'm not like my friend, who's 30 and uses his mental illness as an excuse to sit around and play video games with his friends and smoke weed every day in his mom's house. I text him for the first time in 10 months and he's still "waiting to get his head straight" before getting a job.

My boss, who's a vet with PTSD, had to wait out 4 months before he could get medicated, and he's middle class.