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Okay, okay, I am so sorry and I truly hope this is the last time I post unprompted about this but this has genuinely hit me in a way that nothing has in nearly 20 years, if ever and I am just emotionally overwhelmed. I literally just tried to cry myself to sleep because I just couldn't deal anymore again.

So, like. Obviously I like stories, and I like video games and so I've read/experienced/played a lot of them. Not as many as some, and heck maybe even on the low end here on Board 8 but still. I like to engross myself in them in what is surely partially an exercise in escapism so I tend to connect pretty viscerally with them at times. When I finish one oftentimes there might be a slight wistful feeling or maybe nothing at all. In rare cases, like say a Trails in the Sky the 3rd or Chaos;Child I may be left with a bit of an emotional hollow feeling as if in having reached the end I feel like it gripped deep enough into me and gouged out a piece of me now that it's gone. It doesn't happen that often but is pretty much always a sign that a story really touched or resonated with me. But given some process time and actually going to sleep it gets better. It's why I joke sometimes that when I'm doing insta-reactions that things will surely come back down to Earth the next day or two.

That's not happening here. It's getting worse.

The more time I have to spend turning XB3's ending (and the game as a whole in light of that) in my mind that feeling is getting worse. It's resonating with me on deeper and more personal levels the more deeply I think about it. And fuck it's tearing me apart. I think the only other media I can think of that has impacted me like this is Evangelion back when I was a teenager and the more I try to consider why that is the more I'm concluding it's because I feel like I'm facing a reflection of myself in them and it hurts. It's beautiful to me but it also just really fucking hurts.

Takahashi, you don't know me but I need to call in a favor here, I know it undercuts the theme and message of the game but I need the Noah/Mio reunion. I just do, okay. I found out who Moebius A is, *I* am Moebius A but I just need this emotionally, please.

Like, dammit, to hell with it the more I ruminate on this, fuck it - Xenoblade 3 is my new #1. If it can do this to me, it almost has to be. Fuck.

.......Also while I said I hope this is the last time I bring this up unprompted because I must sound like a fucking crazy person and also a lot of discussion would require spoiler bars and I really do feel bad about filling the topic with them this won't be the last XB3 post because I still have to start the postgame some time. Fuck.