LogFAQs > #967248510

So I got diagnosed with depression yesterday. I knew I had it, I've known since I was a teenager (32 now), just never did anything about it in that toxic masculinity sort of way.

Got a psychologist lined up, and started on Zoloft, diazepam and propranolol.

I've always been able to manage it and my anxiety pretty well. Sometimes the anxiety physical symptoms flared up and I'd go get a diazepam script to just deal with them and they'd go back to normal after a couple weeks, but the last few weeks have been really bad and the mental symptoms are the worst they've ever been. So yeah, decided to actually do something about it.

Not sure what caused it, I don't think I had any trauma that would cause it, although I don't really remember my childhood much, so I've got no doubt that it was probably my parents in some way (not that they would've ever MEANT it, they were never abusive at all), but I honestly have no idea, I need a psychologist to drag it out of me, no doubt. The doctor after 20min of listening to me actually open up (which turned into a bit of a rambling word vomit, kind of like this post) was just like O_O and said it'll be 2 years psychology, 6 months medication MINIMUM.

So, yeah. Nothing about me has changed, it's how I've always been, just actually gonna do something about it, or try.

So I'm not allowed to drink (much) or do anything else "fun".

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