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banananor posted...

the whole process gets easier if you can figure out exactly what you're looking for in friendship, or what you need in your social life. after that, it's straightforward to pinpoint the actions you can take to start feeling better

Anyway, this is where I have problems. Mainly...I feel old. The things I used to be able to do to find people arent there anymore, or if they are, they are things I don't feel like doing anymore.

Hell I tried to return to WoW to see if talking to that crowd, many of which were people I knew prior, but it just...didnt fill the void. It was something I had been happy to mostly put behind me. I didn't have the drive. Worse is I started to feel uncomfortable talking to people about how I was feeling. It wasn't a game, crowd, or environment I wanted to return to. I tried to fill a void with old habits and it was a mistake.

hell even if I wanted to, a lot of games these days have actively locked out socialization as people proved they couldn't handle them.

I don't have a great sense of where to go where I can feel like anything but just a bystander stuck in a crowd. Worse is that isn't even a feeling I usually dislike. Hell I'm a frequent visitor to theme parks and about half those visits are on my own. I used to like the feeling of being able to just kind of have fun lost in a crowd. But now I've got too much of the feeling and its overwhelming(My solo theme park ventures these past months have not been sapped of their enjoyment, I'll be happy to say).