LogFAQs > #964529429

You definitely aren't alone on this Red. I feel almost exactly the same way and think about this constantly every day.

I mean hell, I have a discord channel specifically for close RL friends and close online friends and it gets posts in it once every two months these days to the point that I don't even really have any RL friends any more. They've all gone off and are doing their own things. It's incredibly depressing.

I'm part of scarlet's DC DnDlike discord and things happen there often but I absolutely feel like an outsider a lot of the time, though I think the situation is slightly different than yours there.

Often I would ask people to do things, or try and get people into something and it seems every time I try, it fails. Maybe my interests are too specific, or maybe everyone just secretly hates me. So slowly over time I just stop asking people, I stop trying to initiate the "fun times". And now I just often sit on my PC or laptop in my free time and just watch Youtube or Twitch alone. The fun times barely happen outside of the DnD stuff.

Maybe part of it is due to the health problems I've been having over the last year, making it difficult for me to do anything enjoyable for too long. But I always sink back to a space where I'm thinking that it's all my fault and I'm just a huge screw up.

For what it's worth though, I always appreciate your company Red and we've had lots of the fun times together.