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More nuance to the story: I am a very accepting and fluid person. I am not a jealous person, I have a partner and we have a semi open relationship. We do not believe in jealousy.

My partner was jealous of my friendship with this girl. For the first time ever. It took a little bit, but I explained that this friendship meant a lot to me, and it was a very important part of my life. If given an ultimatum, I would choose my friendship over my partner. Not because I cared about them more or less, just because I am not willing to compromise what is important to me, and the commitments I have made to others.

I had been there for her through a lot. a lot of shit. I wasnt going to turn my back on her for anybody.

After discussion, my partner understood and we remained friends. We remained people who (I thought) could rely on eachother no matter what.

I was having an incredibly rough time, the stress of my job felt crushing, and I was fading as a person. When I needed my friend the most was when she decided to choose sides and turn her back on me. No fight, no discussion, no nothing. Just chose the side of some guy over the person who had been there for her through some fucked up shit that she never would have shared with him.

Ill admit that the entire situation has hardened me quite a bit. Im less trusting. Im less open. I do not want to have another friend like that because I do not want to be hurt like that again.

I need a partner. I need love, sex, somebody to come home to. Some people dont need that, but I do.

I do not need a friend to share everything with. I can keep things to myself. I probably will forever keep it that way now. It was nice to have that person, but I can live without it.

Im drunk, Im not even sure if any of this makes sense.