After hours of reading it, here's how I understood it:
She thinks Fauci and some secret government are using the "fake" virus to control and manipulate the people via using fear and having people destroy the economy. She believes she is very well educated and apparently did a lot of research so she knows her shit but with all the bullshit she gets from people she feels her privileged entitlement and opinions means nothing no more so basically she feels she feels empty.
She then talks about how the people she considered her friends not supporting her and backstabbing her. Apparently she feels she has been unconditionally supporting and loved all her friends regardless of their lifestyles and beliefs or even if she thought they were wrong. She says she is now woke to all the evils in the world.