It sounds like you are improving even if you dont know it and that makes me happy. I hope you keep finding more friends and if need be boy friends and find some true joy in life.
I must apologize I wrote a reply already but my brain (if you can call it that) overloaded on happy and I couldnt keep things straight so I erased my earlier post to replace it with this one. Sorry to be weird but what do you expect from me? Again Congratulations I always and will always believe in you.
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