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And I like popcorn and chocolate.
Aloe vera & palm tree plants.
Eggs and a huge mug of a good tea in the morning. :)

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DATING
What I'm actually looking for
I actually dislike the term "looking for" and the entire realm of internet dating.

I rather get myself out there and be visible in my truest form- not "caving" as I have been for the past few years, and let the love find me, instead of searching for it.

I am not looking for a second half because I am not a half either. I want a soul-mate partner who gets me like I get him and with whom we will be best friends, speaking our hearts with no filter.
I also want to find "my tribe"- a friend or friends from anywhere in this world, my lost twins say hi to me.

I don't think I ever dated like the "regular people "do...
To me a perfect date is just hanging out, walking or whatever, and I've never even called them dates, not putting too much pressure on the process of it... I like spending time together.. lil trips... Ideal date would be a hot coco by a fireplace with crackling sounds and plenty of stuff to talk or laugh about and maybe then also reasons to kiss and say nothing at all.

Although I'd definitely go on a date with a person who is in touch with what they think or feel.

To elaborate on it- I prefer to be around people who speak up over those who don't know how to talk about how they feel about something...

I like when people can address important things in polite thoughtful way... I speak with love and I like that about people too.
However I don't necessarily treat people like gentle petals,
I will say what I need to say just without being rude.

SINCE DATING & relationships here in Finland mostly start from a drunken hookups I don't date locally. Neither I drink. Certainly not willing to hookup with a random dude or someone I have no feelings for,
not even with the guy I like before I know him,
all that - not my jam,
so I feel that I must push myself out there, somewhere... because realistically, who am I going to meet here... ( laughing!)

Don't get me wrong- I am NOT complaining or unfortunate- Finland is an amazing safe country to live in- with a beautiful nature and social democratic system, we have no homeless, no hunger, even students get a salary for being students, and living here is MAD easy- but the odds of finding someone for life are close to ZERO. The people are cold and it is VERY HARD to make one friend. Family here is not a priority.
Parents have no idea how to parent the child's emotions and they grow up to be socially cold and distant, but it is normal here.
Seems to me that a lot of people nowadays - everywhere not just here- don't know what love is.
Everything is a transaction, nothing is genuinely given, nothing is about just giving and loving.
They build the walls preventing them feeling emotionally good or bad, and what it does it not only keeps the pain out but also keeps the pain in- so there are a lot of really sad internally people trying to find love and twist it into a transaction strategy in a relationship.
This kind of conditioning seems wrong and worthless to me.

I've worked on my character all my life, through lots of ups and downs, and it would be nice to have it appreciated, but unfortunately here the qualities I have are completely overlooked. Total frog land... ;) ha
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