LogFAQs > #909508574

I have dreams, I have things I want to do and be, but I make no effort to achieve them. We're talking about years of no self-discipline. Why do I set aside things that I want? It's just because I'm happy where I am...but it's that very contentment that in a way keeps me from being happier. It's so easy to do, I have so many sources that make it easier, but for some reason I ignore it all and carry on the way things are. If I did just this the rest of my life I'd feel part of me missing. I already feel like I've pissed away too much time... Maybe that's why I don't do it now? Maybe I feel like it's too late?
Nah... I know it isn't. I know that at any moment I can change things for me. But I won't. And I'll feel depressed because I won't. And I'll hate myself for even being bothered about it and for being lazy in the first place, I'll call myself a privileged bitch who has no right to complain or have issues. And I am.

In the end I know it's just my fault, it's just the way I am. It's in my control but I'll just leave it alone for no reason. The only thing I'll do is call thinking about it "effort" and crack jokes about it on the internet, while I sit back and purposely not strive for my dreams because I have no discipline. It's the same trait that keeps my father from contacting me more than twice a year even though he wants to.
Whatever...

(Don't take this too seriously)
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