LogFAQs > #899030523

Not really going well, guy. Today was my first day back from spring break, and I just wish I were more interested in what my teachers are saying. And I wish I didn't have so much of a disinterest in school in general, because recently, I often get exhausted just thinking of school. I'm just so tired... To add to that, there was this mandatory math major advising session that made me wait in school for four bloody hours after my last class of the day had ended. Like, give me a break. All I want them to do is sign my course schedule so that I can register for classes next fall, and they make me sit through a bunch of boring speakers, that sorry, I wish I had more interest in, but really did not care for at all. Like, these speakers were talking about things that were entirely irrelevant to me (with the sole exception of a representative from that bank with the data analyst internship I royally screwed up on). I don't want to travel abroad, I don't want to do any math-related projects, and I certainly do not even want to go to graduate school. I don't bloody need it, and I'm sick of people telling me about it. I don't have the money to go, nor do I have the motivation nor do I have the need. I don't want to tutor people because I have a very off-putting personality and have absolutely no social skills; and I don't want to grade papers because I am very confident that I've forgotten much of the calculus I've learned, and I just cannot deal with the pressure of deciding other people's grades. It's not my fault that these upper-division math classes don't even use a lot of the things we learned from calculus, despite having those courses as prerequisites. But this is entirely irrelevant to my disinterest in grading papers. I mean, if I were really motivated, I'd study ahead for that endeavor. I'd study anyway, but I'm just so tired nowadays and barely even have the energy to study for the courses I'm taking right now. Anyway, I'm already happily employed--I think. I'm sometimes pondering if I'm working at the right job with respect to my career. And that's why I'm kicking myself so hard for panicking and forfeiting that data analyst internship. Not many people would hire a college bloke with no degree into a position relating to his field of study. So I'm very certain that I screwed up with respect to that. Anyway, I'm sorry if I didn't pay attention to more than half the things being discussed in the room, but no offense: I really have better things to do than spend ninety minutes listening to opportunities that I have no interest or time in pursuing. All I wanted those people to do was sign a piece of paper that would clear a hold on my registration, and I appreciate the math department taking the time and putting so much effort into arranging all these informational lectures presenting a myriad of vocational and educational opportunities to students who might be interested. But these lectures just didn't apply to me. So I kind of feel bad now because I didn't even pay attention half the session. On the other hand, I really want five hours of my life back. ...And now I sound like some self-entitled prick. >>