LogFAQs > #892727903

So I just got a raise at work, and I genuinely believe that I don't deserve my thirteen-dollar pay rate. It mainly relates to my browsing habits at work. Basically, from time to time, I browse GameFAQs or look at the website hub for my college classes and the like. I do so because I just get really tired and exhausted from doing the same thing over and over again, to the point that I need to look at something else to distract me from the tedium of my job. Hence, why I glance at forums and my class sites from time to time to refresh myself, in a sense. I really, really don't believe I deserve this three-dollar pay raise because I get away with so much crap using the internet. I take bandwidth away from other users, and I'm so guilty about it. I'm pretty sure they know, and I really don't know why they're giving me a pay raise. I really feel like I don't deserve it, and it's killing me inside. I really know I should stop browsing the internet so casually at work, but I just feel so nervous and agitated when I feel like I'm stuck "doing work". I'm freaking out because I'm anticipating the next quarterly review of my work habits, and am extremely worried about my boss talking to me about it, and possibly firing me. I feel like I'm going to be fired for this one thing at any moment now, and it's really freaking me out. It freaks me out every time that I feel like someone's watching me, that I'm going to get fired the very next day because the IT person will review the websites I've visited, and I just cannot sleep every one of those nights. I'm worrying like hell until I get to my job the next day, when nothing happens. Right now, I'm scared to hell right now about losing a job, and having to put the reason why that job was lost on a resume. I know I should stop, but I feel some fatigue after doing the same thing for many hours in a row. I need someone to help me, because I genuinely believe now that I have an internet addiction. I genuinely believe that I don't deserve this pay raise, and I feel like I'm going to die right now, because I'm wondering what other co-workers must think of me when they see me browsing non-work stuff on the computer. I'm a bad worker, right? Am I worrying over nothing? No, right? What do I do? Are my feelings about my pay raise justified?
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